Anyone else a mistake?

[Rugnificent]

Is anyone else a mistake? I was never supposed to be born. My mom has her tubes tied and I happened by mistake. The doctor advised my mom to abort because due to her age I was at risk for developing problems. Well I've been fucked with all sorts of mental shit. It's bad enough on both sides of my family there is a fun mix of mental problems. It's bad enough my mom used to tell it to me since I can remember and joke about how I was free because that happened, but every time I heard it, it hurt. I feel like life has been trying to find a way to fix the hiccup, and maybe that's why certain things happen to me. It's like a pattern in my life now; I find something that brings me joy, I slowly start to get comfortable and things are going up, BOOM it all slips away in a matter of a week. I've done everything to try and stop it from happening but it always does. I can't even be happy anymore because I'm conditioned to feel like it's a warning sign more than a good thing. It feels like everyone and especially the universe wants to erase me, can anyone relate?

 

[TimeToDie]

I too am an accident of birth. I was born right before both my parents turned 44, and so far I've yet to meet anybody who had older parents. They should never have had any children. Given how much the human condition sucks it's questionable if anybody should reproduce at all.

 

[Darkhaven]

Yes i am also a "mishap". And my mother told me about it even when i was relatively young.
The way she put it, basically my father was like " no i don't want kids because i will be a lousy father and they will suffer because of me." But yeah it still happened. And my mother admited it that it took them by surprise but she also told me that sooner or later she would like to have kids and because of that she was happy with my unplanned pregnancy. So if my father would then still be unwilling they would probably get a divorce anyways because having a partner that doesn't want kids is a complete dealbreaker i imagine.
But yeah i was an "accident" and my father really meant it when he told my mother that he would be a lousy father because he really has been: rarely present when needed and mostly uninterested in me.

I too am an accident of birth. I was born right before both my parents turned 44, and so far I've yet to meet anybody who had older parents. They should never have had any children. Given how much the human condition sucks it's questionable if anybody should reproduce at all.

My aunt got pregnant at 41 or 42.
But it was planned. Kids are now turning 3 and she is like 45. When they reach 20 she will be in her 60's.
They will look like grandfathers rather than fathers but hey it's not that big of a deal, right?

 

[Soul]

Pretty much anyone born before the mid '60s (in the US and Western Europe anyway) was a product of a thoughtless "people have babies" approach. Some of us have further confirmation that we weren't actually wanted.

 

[Halo13]

Back when she was alive, my mother never failed to remind me she tried to abort me. She was pretty outspoken in her loathing of my existence, starting when I was 7-8 years old. I wasn't a mistake so much as "I never wanted you! You ruined my life!"

She's dead now, I'm an only child. Doesn't matter much now.

 

[RM5998]

Well, my mom keeps saying that having me wasn't the mistake, raising me herself was. The only reason I exist is to prove to others that she's stronger, smarter and wiser than everyone else. I'm still trying to find a way to make her happy so that I can die knowing that I wasn't entirely a waste. At my current rate of downhill descent into mediocrity and stagnation, if not outright poverty, that's unlikely to happen.

 

[GinaIsReady]

I was unplanned and unwanted. 6th child.

 

[whyidon'tknow]

My dad got the snip snip yet here I am. Parents told me I was special that way but nah i'm just a mistake

 

[DepressionsAHo]

Daddy dearest wanted me aborted and never failed to take his hatred of My mother's refusal to abort out on me any chance he got. Through a variety of means. Whether that be through beatings, starvation or simple ignorance of every major event happening in my life including birthdays, sports events or Christmas. My brother was born of rape but boy did daddy-kins LOVE him. My brother and I are 4 days apart in our birthdays. He would completely ignore mine but when his came around, immediately he got a call and presents. One time he got him an Xbox 360 while I got nothing

 

[Night Sky]

Hate to bump this, but I meant to reply a long while back. I'm absolutely a mistake and it's been a strong part of why I want to end my life. My mother got pregnant with me accidentally from my father before they knew each other that well. Both of their families were quite religious and having a baby out of wedlock was unthinkable, so they pressured them into getting married.

When I was a baby my mom landed her dream job as an apprentice to a professional she really looked up to. Then my dad decided to "get his life together" and joined the Marines, got stationed on some base out in the middle of the desert, and insisted on my mom and I living with him there. So my mom had to give up her dream career literally right after achieving it to go be a stay at home mom in the desert. And it just goes from there.

She's tried to love me, but you can tell how hurt she is deep down by how things played out. She'll go into the garage to talk on the phone with friends where she thinks no one can hear her, and has sometimes broken down sobbing after wishing things had turned out differently and that she had never met my dad, that I hadn't been born, that she should have gotten a divorce, all that.

And my dad is worse. He wanted me to grow up to be a big tall muscular dude who played sports and got a factory job like him, instead of a scrawny short geeky kid I turned out to be. Even in my 20's now he still buys me shirts in size large or XL because he still clings to the hope that I'll "grow into them" one day, and regularly tells me how much of a disappointment I am along with passive aggressive text messages every once in a while. And that's when he's sober. Plus, I've overheard them talking to my aunts and uncles saying that they hope my younger siblings have kids early so they can have grandchildren, because "who would want to marry" me. They've already given up on me finding anyone and admit that I'm repulsive and unwanted to our family's faces.

Unlike a lot of people who feel they're disappointments to their parents and family who infer how they feel based on how their family acts, I have concrete evidence of how much of an unwanted mistake I am thrown in my face every day. Hell, the other day I found out that my extended family has a bunch of group chats that they're part of to stay in touch that have been around for years, yet I've never been part of one. And when my mom was showing me some pictures that they were sharing in the chat, I caught a glimpse of one of my aunts making jokes about me and calling me a loser.

Yeah, mistake is putting it lightly. I never asked to be here. Hopefully by exiting on my own terms I can make the world a brighter place in some miniscule way.

 

[737492]

I was conceived because my mom forgot to take her birth control.

 

[woxihuanni]

My mother desperately wanted me. Fuck her.

 

[Dawn0071111]

My mom told me I was the reason her life was awful. My dad abandoned us when I was 7. She broke, became evil, snapped.... from that day the beatings, abuse began... yeah..

Too bad humans dont just hatch out of eggs..lmao..

 

[ProlongedSentence]

Is anyone else a mistake? I was never supposed to be born. My mom has her tubes tied and I happened by mistake. The doctor advised my mom to abort because due to her age I was at risk for developing problems. Well I've been fucked with all sorts of mental shit. It's bad enough on both sides of my family there is a fun mix of mental problems. It's bad enough my mom used to tell it to me since I can remember and joke about how I was free because that happened, but every time I heard it, it hurt. I feel like life has been trying to find a way to fix the hiccup, and maybe that's why certain things happen to me. It's like a pattern in my life now; I find something that brings me joy, I slowly start to get comfortable and things are going up, BOOM it all slips away in a matter of a week. I've done everything to try and stop it from happening but it always does. I can't even be happy anymore because I'm conditioned to feel like it's a warning sign more than a good thing. It feels like everyone and especially the universe wants to erase me, can anyone relate?

You are not alone.
Yes.
I can relate.
Also.
I don't believe you are a mistake.

 

[Anxious_Panda]

I feel you. My mother was 14 when I was born. Clearly I wasn't meant to be here. I am the product of a mistake and irresponsibility, and I know I messed up everyone's lives in being allowed to be born.

 

[JimFord99]

I am not sure but I always had the gut feeling that I was not planned but an accident. Just the way I was treated by my parents when I was a child. So, all you guys you feel the same, my sympathy is with you.