ClownMe
Don't Cry for Me, I'm Already Dead
- Apr 7, 2021
- 20,561
Anyone else on here a control freak who doesn't have control in any aspects of their life?
I am one and it frustrates me to no end. I want every aspect of my life to be in my control, but ironically the only aspect of my life that is in my control at this present moment is my ability to end my life. In every other aspect i am powerless and i dont see it changing anytime soon.
Im sick of my family messing up the house and not cleaning up after themselves, im sick of my narcassistic mother bullying me, im sick of being broke and having to live in a broken home in which im not loved and may never be able to move out from, im sick of working a dead end, low paying job with no prospect of career advancement where everyone treats me like shit, im sick of not having any friends or a girlfriend because im socially awkward, im sick of never being given respect, the list goes on and on and on....
Im sorry for this rant but im just over it, it does my head in.
I am one and it frustrates me to no end. I want every aspect of my life to be in my control, but ironically the only aspect of my life that is in my control at this present moment is my ability to end my life. In every other aspect i am powerless and i dont see it changing anytime soon.
Im sick of my family messing up the house and not cleaning up after themselves, im sick of my narcassistic mother bullying me, im sick of being broke and having to live in a broken home in which im not loved and may never be able to move out from, im sick of working a dead end, low paying job with no prospect of career advancement where everyone treats me like shit, im sick of not having any friends or a girlfriend because im socially awkward, im sick of never being given respect, the list goes on and on and on....
Im sorry for this rant but im just over it, it does my head in.