I feel the same, I question if I truly came here for research or if that part of me that's somewhat to blame that I'm still here wanted friends again and a meaning to live. But I recognize that I most likely won't be here long and try to warn any others that I do happen to talk with more. I also never really expect things to go anywhere, I'll probably just be dropped again. Or kill it with not being here often haha I liked your wording so hope you don't mind me posting here