Discussion Anybody else only really think about the "smaller" reasons not to CTB when thinking about the cons of suicide?

[Dinozauria]

For some reason, if I'm thinking of things I'll miss for whatever reason, I almost never think of my friends and family. Its weird. I feel horrible about it too. Of course, I'll sometimes think of them, but I mainly think of things on the internet. Like video games I like or all the pieces of media I won't be able to see the end of. I don't even know why I do this.

I'm aware I'm addicted to the Internet. I've been addicted since I was a kid. Not to mention it makes up a significant portion of my personality, and takes all of my free time. I didn't think it was this bad though.

Maybe I just don't take the people around me seriously enough or something. Or maybe I'm selfish? I thought I was kinder then this honestly. Guess not

I'm curious if anybody else feels similar?

 

[TheTwelthRootOfTwo]

For some reason, if I'm thinking of things I'll miss for whatever reason, I almost never think of my friends and family. Its weird. I feel horrible about it too. Of course, I'll sometimes think of them, but I mainly think of things on the internet. Like video games I like or all the pieces of media I won't be able to see the end of. I don't even know why I do this.

I'm aware I'm addicted to the Internet. I've been addicted since I was a kid. Not to mention it makes up a significant portion of my personality, and takes all of my free time. I didn't think it was this bad though.

Maybe I just don't take the people around me seriously enough or something. Or maybe I'm selfish? I thought I was kinder then this honestly. Guess not

I'm curious if anybody else feels similar?

It's very relatable. I think a lot about the "small stuff". I suppose trying to think of the bigger things like family/friends, is too overwhelming, because I'm already thinking they'll just be better off without me anyway, and/or I can't wrap my head around anyone caring that much about me. So, I gravitate toward the little things I'll miss in this life. It always comes down to a favorite song, or smelling lilacs, or seeing a rainbow, hearing the precious birds chirping, etc. Little things.