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LittleJem

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Since my megadose LSD maybe 3 months ago, the suicidal thoughts are largely gone, but I am left with the familiar constant feeling of stress/agitation/low-level misery.

I have been medicating this with MJ every day, but because MJ works best with fat, I have been eating a lot of fatty foods and have put on weight. Also, it gets expensive using every day because my tolerance is high....I've managed today till 11:30 am with no MJ, but am feeling low level miserable and also agitated. But I am functioning. I don't know whether to stay miserable and agitated for the rest of the day? My mind in this situation just wants MJ, but it won't necessarily make me feel better. I was trying to give it up, then a bullying situation began at work, which I'm still dealing with...so no chance of coping without drugs for me. Also, the MJ we currently have is rubbish and virtually pointless to use. So I need to get better stuff. When it is good MJ it makes me more confident and functioning, like a super-version of myself. It also makes me trip and write etc. That is my life, and I don't feel I have other choices. It's drugs or misery - that's the options. I just would like to cut down a bit to save money and also to lose weight.

Maybe I just need healthier fatty foods to activate it - ie olive oil not doughnuts. Also, I need to go and get better stuff.

I'm going to try and last till at least 2pm, and try listening to music. Any other tips appreciated.
 
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Isadeth

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I'm sorry about your situation at work. I work in catty environments and it's awful. I know exactly what you mean with needing something to cope and that it can help with confidence and function. I do want to add that it's awesome lsd has helped with your depression! That's fantastic and I hope your work environment doesn't destroy what lsd has helped you achieve.

As for food alternatives... I guess it would really depend on what you're craving after you use mj.

If you're craving sweets here are some good options:
Oatmeal peanutbutter cookies
Dark chocolate
Frozen dairy free mousse
Frozen yogurt
Gingerbread
Chocolate covered bananas
Chocolate covered strawberries
Cereal and milk (high fiber types)
Whole fat icecream

If you're craving something salty:
Baked potato chips
Cashews
Celery, peanutbutter, raisins
Baked French fries
Vegetables and hummus
Spring rolls
Canned tuna
Olives
Trail mix

Etc. Just to give you some ideas.

I hope this helps some! ♡
 
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Life_and_Death

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Jul 1, 2020
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Only works with fatty foods? I didn't know that I just ate what it made me what lol. Typically chocolate but I don't get munchies all that much.

Basically I'm asking why it only works with fatty foods or if it's just a you thing and its different for everyone like most things are.
 
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LittleJem

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Only works with fatty foods? I didn't know that I just ate what it made me what lol. Typically chocolate but I don't get munchies all that much.

Basically I'm asking why it only works with fatty foods or if it's just a you thing and its different for everyone like most things are.

Hi - here is some info on Cannabis and fat. https://hellomd.com/blogs/articles/why-you-need-to-eat-fat-with-your-cannabis

Some people say you only need as much fat to activate it as is contained in the edible. I have been piling it with digestive biscuits, more biscuits etc - because I want it to work. But I need to stop doing that! I need to ideally cut down, then I can get a better effect from less.

Weirdly, I've only ever had the munchies once - but use MJ every day....
I'm sorry about your situation at work. I work in catty environments and it's awful. I know exactly what you mean with needing something to cope and that it can help with confidence and function. I do want to add that it's awesome lsd has helped with your depression! That's fantastic and I hope your work environment doesn't destroy what lsd has helped you achieve.



I hope this helps some! ♡


Thank you for all your tips - and also for understanding the work situation. Am also going to try some deep breathing - I've now made it to 12:50 PM London time.
 
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Life_and_Death

Do what's best for you 🕯️ Right now, I'm stressed
Jul 1, 2020
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I use it every day too but I feel like it's in my best interest to stop. If you'd like maybe we can help each other out through this :) of course I don't plan on starting to quit for a few more days. It's preventing mental problems while causing others so I'm kinda waiting to get some medication from my doctor to take its place
 
Sensei

Sensei

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Nov 4, 2019
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Have you tried exercising? It showers your brain with endorphines and will most probably make you feel better.
 
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Toobrokentofix

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Jul 7, 2020
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I'm a chronic mj user too. Today I am also trying to eek it out. Still not toked but did go swimming and have been trying to take lots of deep, slow belly breaths! The swimming was actually amazing. Just swam through my mind chatter and focused on gliding through the water. I felt calm the whole time I was in the water. Starting to feel on edge again now... but it is nearly 4pm!
 
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Cherrypea

Cherrypea

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May 3, 2020
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Have you thought about micro dosing with lsd or shrooms?
 

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