Discussion any other ocd havers here uwu?

[dustbiter]

among other issues, one major component of my desire to ctb is my ocd :3

i was diagnosed several years ago (along with bipolar type 2), and it makes interacting with any person at all extremely difficult. i rarely leave my home because the thought of being around other people is so stressful it almost always makes me vomit and break down ;w;

the checking and rituals i do whenever i see another person is exhausting, both physically and mentally, and it makes me fear ever leaving my home :3!
my mental and physical health have deteriorated so much, and it's made my social skills next to non-existent.
i've tried to ctb once via overdose (not recommended!!), but i was found too quickly ;w;

my life is a shell, and i want out :3

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

OCD and bipolar II here as well.

Been dealing with the OCD for ~20 years now. For me, it's counting. Every single I and T in everything I write, read, hear, see, think... I can only stop when it adds up to number ending in 5 or 0. A lot of music I listen to has no vocals because then there's nothing for me to count.

 

[Sherri]

Yup, I tend to buy things in pairs, use one and have another thing hiding somewhere, I know weird and costs me money. But can't quit doing that, always afraid of the thing i buy gets damaged.

 

[Dreamlike Reality]

I also have OCD. I have to blink every time I pass a corner of a wall, furniture, etc . . . Anything. I also have to wash my hands three times consecutively and check every lock in my house three times when I wake up and when I go to sleep. Everything is really in a pattern of threes for me.

 

[healthrecovery]

Kitteh

 

[dresdendoller]

yes its so bad because its always on my mind. i dont think non-OCD people understand just how much brain space it takes up.

 

[LeGuitarist]

I have mild (undiagnosed) OCD. I just have to touch the corners of everything, which gets annoying as my laptop is touch screen and it usually messes up whatever I'm doing. Whenever I touch something with my nail, I have to rub it until it feels smooth again. If I touch something, I have to touch the rest of it too. And whenever I'm outside where there are tiles, my feet have to touch each color tile equally otherwise it wouldn't be "fair" to the other foot.

 

[supermario]

I have OCD too, and it's the only reason I want to ctb. My OCD is DIFFERENT from anything out there in the worst way. I won't go into the details, but it's truly next level shit that is literally destroying both my body and consciousness.