ItsMe-Hecked
Student
- Dec 30, 2021
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Some of this post will likely come across as ableism, though it's not my intention.
For some background, I didn't get diagnosed with autism until age 16. I had plenty of other diagnoses that have added up since age 9, though; ADHD, ODD, Social Anxiety, Depression, Bipolar II, BPD, CPTSD, Dyslexia, and probably some other ones that I can't remember. Anyway, ever since the fourth grade I've been forced into Special ED classes. I always thought it was bullshit. I walk it, there are a bunch of nonverbal people, all older than me. I had to attend social skills group with them. In my mind, I was better than them. (I get how that sounds now, but I was an angry kid. It was almost certainly a narcissistic view of self that I picked up on from my parents.) I already knew how to have a conversation. Not effectively, but I could communicate my thoughts. At this point, I thought I was just some regular kid with ADHD that was bullied.
Now it's different from then, though. It feels like they're all succeeding and blissfully ignorant, meanwhile people who clearly aren't autistic are begging for a diagnosis to look cool on TikTok.
Don't know where I'm going with this post, but fuck. I should've really gotten a diagnosis earlier.
For some background, I didn't get diagnosed with autism until age 16. I had plenty of other diagnoses that have added up since age 9, though; ADHD, ODD, Social Anxiety, Depression, Bipolar II, BPD, CPTSD, Dyslexia, and probably some other ones that I can't remember. Anyway, ever since the fourth grade I've been forced into Special ED classes. I always thought it was bullshit. I walk it, there are a bunch of nonverbal people, all older than me. I had to attend social skills group with them. In my mind, I was better than them. (I get how that sounds now, but I was an angry kid. It was almost certainly a narcissistic view of self that I picked up on from my parents.) I already knew how to have a conversation. Not effectively, but I could communicate my thoughts. At this point, I thought I was just some regular kid with ADHD that was bullied.
Now it's different from then, though. It feels like they're all succeeding and blissfully ignorant, meanwhile people who clearly aren't autistic are begging for a diagnosis to look cool on TikTok.
Don't know where I'm going with this post, but fuck. I should've really gotten a diagnosis earlier.