I have difficulty figuring out if I'm a alcoholic, I binged drinked for 10 years, n cut right rigth down over the last 5 years feel a better person for it, but I always question to have a drink n I say no in my head
You sound a bit like me, I had the "should I have a drink" question loads after I'd really cut down, sometimes I would and sometimes I wouldn't - then I realised one day I'd been over a month without so much as a pint, and I hadn't thought about it either. I definitely was an alcoholic, just not a daily one, I was one that couldn't stop drinking once I started. I couldn't pass a pub without going in that's for sure, and if I went out for the day, no matter what it was for, I'd drink.
I feel like a "normal" drinker now, if there is such a thing. I can have a few cans and stop, I can go in a pub and leave after two pints, I can turn down a drink if I don't like it (wheras before I'd drink anything offered) and I can go in shops and not even bother going down the alcohol section, wheras before that'd likely be my first port of call.
I've had one massive drinking session in 3 years, out with an ex-bird from 10am to 11pm, and weirdly I didn't even get drunk. I think my liver had recovered that much I could handle what I threw at it. 3+ years ago I'd black out after a few hours.