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Memento

Memento

I refuse to succumb
Apr 6, 2023
408
I have GAD and I struggle immensely with anxious and intrusive thoughts, especially at night. Voices in my head telling me things like I'm worthless, that I don't deserve to live, that it would be better to die. And it's really difficult sitting with those feelings while trying to go to bed. I just want a peaceful night, to be able to sleep and not obsess over everything wrong that could happen tomorrow and constantly worrying about family and friends.

I'm sick of it, and it makes me hate myself for the way that I am.
 
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thirdrailer

thirdrailer

Member
Oct 24, 2020
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Hey, Momento. You didn't ask for advice so I won't give any. I think I know how you feel, if not exactly than at least closely. And I will say that it's quite fair to hate being how you are, but I just ask please don't hate yourself for it. It's not a choice you've made, and you would choose otherwise if it were that simple. I know I would. I hope you and I each find rest tonight.
 
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Zegers

Zegers

Enlightened
Dec 15, 2021
1,758
Do you mean like someone talking or thoughts?
 
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Memento

Memento

I refuse to succumb
Apr 6, 2023
408
Do you mean like someone talking or thoughts?
It's more like my own thoughts, it's just to me it feels like constant voices ringing in my head telling me these awful things and ideas about myself.
 
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