BipolarGuy
Enlightened
- Aug 6, 2020
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I've decided on poisoning, and on trying to obtain 'N' from 'C' (or somebody else).
I'm anxious though:
Anxious about being scammed
Anxious about it being interrupted by police or customs
Anxious about how long it will take me to get it
Then there are the questions:
What will it feel like to take 'N'?
Will it be peaceful?
How will those I leave behind react?
What about those who have emotionally abused me throughout my life and done nothing but drag me down...how will they react?
I feel 'there', but I need this to come together.
I've just found out that I have a £1,150 tax repayment due, so it kind of feels that the universe is opening this up for me.
Ever feel like the universe is pushing you in a certain direction...like the 'stars are lining up' to make something happen?
I'm anxious though:
Anxious about being scammed
Anxious about it being interrupted by police or customs
Anxious about how long it will take me to get it
Then there are the questions:
What will it feel like to take 'N'?
Will it be peaceful?
How will those I leave behind react?
What about those who have emotionally abused me throughout my life and done nothing but drag me down...how will they react?
I feel 'there', but I need this to come together.
I've just found out that I have a £1,150 tax repayment due, so it kind of feels that the universe is opening this up for me.
Ever feel like the universe is pushing you in a certain direction...like the 'stars are lining up' to make something happen?