Venting antidepressants keep fucking failing me

[endofeverything]

i know this isn't the place to get medical advice, and i'm really not trying to, but i just need to rant about this

one month after starting, i've decided to quit the antidepressant i'm taking. again...... i've already tried three different types before, and none of them had any of the promised positive effects for me. all i ever get are side effects, and they are BAD. the supposed positive effects were either completely absent, or disproportionately weak compared to the downsides.

the last two weeks have been some of the worst in my life. i was almost constantly thinking about ending it, i completely stopped enjoying the things i usually do, and everything was a struggle. and while there are other contributing factors, it just doesn't make sense that i would feel this agitated, hopeless and apathetic towards everything i used to love THIS far into taking the medication. why does it never work out? it's not like i subconsciously want them to fail, on the contrary: i put so much hope and expectation into things getting easier, and the lack of anything changing just makes me crash even harder.

i keep hearing and reading from people who were greatly helped by these types of medication and i'm left wondering - why not me? what's wrong about my body that makes all these meds have almost only adverse effects? i feel hopeless at this point. i don't even know if i should bother going back to my neurologist and gettting a 5th type of medication. it'll just be more of the same.


for the record: sertraline, paroxetine, trazodone, bupropion

 

[slinkey10]

Was going to ask what but you have listed.

-Everyones physiology is different. (fact)
Google it - https://aacdrpubs.faculty.ucdavis.edu/wp-content/uploads/sites/211/2015/03/lin012.pdf
loads of other research around sleeping pills (me included) that fit into some group of ppl that they just dont work on.

sertraline & the other ssris u listed - is cheap crap. Back in the day it was prozac but more expensive but ultimatley just numbs/blunts your emotions.
bupropion = NDRI ... dopamine+... eye roll

Also the ssri myth has been debunked

Analysis: Depression is probably not caused by a chemical imbalance in the brain – new study

Writing in The Conversation, Professor Joanna Moncrieff and Dr Mark Horowitz (both UCL Psychiatry) report on their new research showing no clear evidence that serotonin levels or serotonin activity are responsible for depression.

www.ucl.ac.uk

obvs psychitary = ssris's & the dumb DSM is there bread & butter so this for balance

Has the Serotonin Hypothesis Been Debunked?

A recent review paper claims it debunks the serotonin hypothesis for depression. But it was never a legitimate hypothesis, so there is nothing to debunk.

www.psychologytoday.com

"one month after starting, i've decided to quit the antidepressant i'm taking. again" - :)

 

[endofeverything]

sertraline & the other ssris u listed - is cheap crap.

i know, all i got was cheap tier low efficacy meds that you get when your doctor doesn't think it's that serious. but they seem to work for other people, just not me. as for prozac and others like it, based on how i react to even these simpler meds, i'm scared of what those would do to me

 

[WeDontKnowTheFuture]

It's not your body the problem but these medications, don't have any hope to be helped by them, it is truly poison, really. I have been suicidal for no reason during the first two weeks i took them and wasn't before. I've been emotionaly numb, disconected of myself, and i was not aware about what was going one. After one and half month taking them, i was feeling euphoric for no reason like a completely artificial and false one that make my jaw muscle contracting to smile but i wasn't really happy was just a weird chemistry trick doing on myself...like really it is a morbid thing that destroy you from the inside. Some people think that they are helped by them but is only placebo or simply the fact that they have no access to the emotional part wich prevent them to feel difficult emotions. The euphoric thing i describe last only a few weeks, after it is done and you will be disconected from your sensitivy, often lost your sexuality, etc...
They are a scam and a scientific fraud.
Do not listen psychiatrist or doctors.
Good luck

 

[slinkey10]

i know, all i got was cheap tier low efficacy meds that you get when your doctor doesn't think it's that serious. but they seem to work for other people, just not me. as for prozac and others like it, based on how i react to even these simpler meds, i'm scared of what those would do to me

I would only advise meds like prozac short term 6mths max if you need a break from feeling - they blunt your emotions, sometimes this can give you a break from yourself!!!!

But.... when you stop taking them you do get your emotions & feelings back. So, if you havent activley changed anything / lifestyle etc while on them then you're the same person with the same baggage.

 

[ninonino1]

They're neurotoxins. You might be in withdrawal atm which is why you feel worse.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

I think it's tme for Adderall. You can actually feel it working 15 minutes after you take it.