Venting antidepressants didnt rly work

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i've been taking antidepressants for a while now along with some adhd meds and the main noticeable effect has just been that the suicidal thoughts dont come as often unprovoked. however when i focus on the topic my consensus is still that i would much rather prefer being dead. its just easier to forget about the fact that dying is an option looming, you know?

i know that antidepressants aren't a silver bullet but still i am starting to feel like my problem is a lot more to do with how reality is structured and the meaninglessness of it all instead of it just being a chemical imbalance in my brain. the unfortunate part is that I don't think there are very good counterarguments to nihilism, at least, those that would convince me that my existence is important to some end. but all things seem to point to death being the most favourable outcome.

 

[danny10]

I can relate. I tried about 10 different antidepressants (I still take 2) and 3-4 different antipsychotics. None of them work. I still wanna CTB.

 

[purelydaft]

Depression is a catch-all diagnosis and it's difficult to prescribe antidepressants with any kind of accuracy. Sometimes they help, a lot of the time they probably don't.

I understand where you're coming from as it's something I've thought a lot about throughout my life. We have an incessant need to reason with ourselves and our worldviews. That said, I wouldn't necessarily decouple chemical imbalances and our thoughts. It's one blob of a mess we don't entirely understand. If you feel like there are things you still might want from life, it could be worth pursuing them even through all the hurt and meaningless meandering. If you don't... well, I don't attach any particular value to living, so my prerogative is to do what feels right.

 

[areyousafe??]

Do you find that the antidepressants help lift your mood? How long have you been on them for?

I can relate. I tried about 10 different antidepressants (I still take 2) and 3-4 different antipsychotics. None of them work. I still wanna CTB.

I relate to this as well. My psychologist asked me to keep a mood diary so now I'm more aware of my moods. The other day I thought to myself "hey I feel happy today...but I still want to kill myself".

 

[lixt]

Depression has two sides—the mind and the brain. The brain might have a chemical imbalance, but that alone won't fix the problem if the mental and emotional side isn't dealt with. Jung and Freud, pioneers of psychoanalysis, believed that unresolved conflicts in the unconscious mind fuel depression, anxiety, and other struggles. Jung stressed the importance of "individuation"—facing and integrating different parts of yourself. Freud focused on how buried emotions and childhood experiences shape mental health. Both agreed: fixing the brain (meds) without addressing the mind (talking) leads to incomplete healing. That's why talking to someone—a therapist, mentor, or even a friend—matters. It helps untangle hidden emotions, break old patterns, and move toward real healing.

My recommendations:
- Have both a psychologist and a psychotherapist.
- First build a non-formal relationship with the psychologist.
- Set the boundaries of the relationship (If you don't want anything noted down or if you are, perhaps, a minor and you don't want your parents to know what is going on, say that you get uncomfortable and block when anyone else knows about what is happening to you).
- Talk about what you want and do your questions. During my first months with the psychologist that worked with me I talked about politics, etc. and played chess.
- Then you will slowly opening up and starting to feel better.

Depending on the cases meds can be enough or just talking is enough, but in most cases both are needed.

 

[squidsponge]

Heyy what adhd meds have worked for you? I just recently got diagnosed

Besides that I can relate that the problem really is the human condition we're trapped in

 

[melonpan]

I feel the same way as you: I no longer have intrusive suicidal thoughts, now I just want to die and it feels almost passive
I don't want to try other antidepressants though because they all make me moody

 

[divinemistress36]

I heard if after trying 3-4 antidepressants arent effective then one is treatment resistant. Of course docs will still keep throwing meds at you anyways . They arent going to be effective if there is underlying trauma work that needs to be done and brain chemistry is tricky they have no idea what or how much neurotransmitter one needs

 

[AdamfromtheUK]

The corrupt secretarial staff are attempting to remove my medication.

 

[Jack_Nimble]

 

[J&L383]

i've been taking antidepressants for a while now along with some adhd meds and the main noticeable effect has just been that the suicidal thoughts dont come as often unprovoked. however when i focus on the topic my consensus is still that i would much rather prefer being dead. its just easier to forget about the fact that dying is an option looming, you know?

i know that antidepressants aren't a silver bullet but still i am starting to feel like my problem is a lot more to do with how reality is structured and the meaninglessness of it all instead of it just being a chemical imbalance in my brain. the unfortunate part is that I don't think there are very good counterarguments to nihilism, at least, those that would convince me that my existence is important to some end. but all things seem to point to death being the most favourable outcome.

They are hit and miss. I have two family members that have been taking them for a number of years with at least some success. My experimentation with them didn't lead anywhere (except more suicidal ideation than before, not good!). Sometimes with the right "cocktail" you can eventually find success but the longer you go without any good results, it hard to keep trying, I totally get that.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

Adderall takes my depression down many notches.