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Living off of miracles.
- Aug 19, 2023
- 5
Hello, I hope this is the right thread to post this in.
I struggle with an ED and my physical appearance which is something leading to my suicidal thoughts. I have been very sick for a couple of days and so was my bf (he got it first).
Long story short we haven't been intimate in a while due to sickness and other factors that prevent that level of intimacy, as well as him being tired from work. To clarify, we are a very loving couple and don't have many issues at all. We have been together for over a year.
Last night while on my phone I got a notification from Instagram that "Someone I may know is on Instagram" I'm not 100% sure how this works but I imagine it goes off of my contacts list, I would have ignored it but it had a username that is something he would make and had a specific set of numbers that we point out almost all the time because we see them often. I look at who this person follows and it is all porn related content. He is actively trying to not use porn, is aware of the harm it does for him and has even spoken to someone about it. It was hard for me to believe it was him at first so I messaged him saying "haha someone in my contacts is following a bunch of porn" and he replied "oh god haha" and less than a couple minutes later my main account was blocked from that account and so was my art profile. This morning I looked again and googled it as well and the account seems to have been deleted.
I am not angry with him, does it make me sad? Yes. He has been under a lot of stress with family and work as he is temporarily caring for the both of us. How do I approach him about this? I can't 100% prove it was him but I want to see if my reasons make sense before I bring it up to him because I know he doesn't want to use porn anymore and I don't want to tell him his use of porn is a cause of some of my bad thoughts because I find that to be cruel. I just want to help him stop a habit he wants to be free from.
TL;DR :
I found my anti-porn boyfriends secret porn account, he blocked both of my Instagram accounts from that profile which has now been deleted, how do I approach him about it?
I struggle with an ED and my physical appearance which is something leading to my suicidal thoughts. I have been very sick for a couple of days and so was my bf (he got it first).
Long story short we haven't been intimate in a while due to sickness and other factors that prevent that level of intimacy, as well as him being tired from work. To clarify, we are a very loving couple and don't have many issues at all. We have been together for over a year.
Last night while on my phone I got a notification from Instagram that "Someone I may know is on Instagram" I'm not 100% sure how this works but I imagine it goes off of my contacts list, I would have ignored it but it had a username that is something he would make and had a specific set of numbers that we point out almost all the time because we see them often. I look at who this person follows and it is all porn related content. He is actively trying to not use porn, is aware of the harm it does for him and has even spoken to someone about it. It was hard for me to believe it was him at first so I messaged him saying "haha someone in my contacts is following a bunch of porn" and he replied "oh god haha" and less than a couple minutes later my main account was blocked from that account and so was my art profile. This morning I looked again and googled it as well and the account seems to have been deleted.
I am not angry with him, does it make me sad? Yes. He has been under a lot of stress with family and work as he is temporarily caring for the both of us. How do I approach him about this? I can't 100% prove it was him but I want to see if my reasons make sense before I bring it up to him because I know he doesn't want to use porn anymore and I don't want to tell him his use of porn is a cause of some of my bad thoughts because I find that to be cruel. I just want to help him stop a habit he wants to be free from.
TL;DR :
I found my anti-porn boyfriends secret porn account, he blocked both of my Instagram accounts from that profile which has now been deleted, how do I approach him about it?