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Nyxtus
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- Nov 14, 2020
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That's how long I'm going to give myself. I had a great deal where I paid very little where I currently live, but due to a poor foundation the house is literally sinking. I'm a full-time college student with no license who has taken whatever odd jobs they can by bike, After years of sacrificing myself to care for family I'm 28 years old with little work experience and huge gaps in employment, with only 2800$ to my name. I live in Orange County, so rent here is astronomical. When my now ex-girlfriend heard about all this she told me it was too much to deal with along with her own depression, and has left me to deal with all this alone. I'm going to try to file for emergency loans but with the way time management works for these colleges it could be too late by the time I can get any of the money.
I struggle with cptsd, anxiety, depression and a couple other issues, and Covid really has come in and decided to put the nail in. Everyone in my life I've supported and loved has turned around and only decided to support me by "being a shoulder to lean on". It's really tiring when all anyone has to say is "Oh, that really sucks! I hope it works out. We're here to talk if you need to!". Talking is nice, I need tangible help. My ex leaving me due to all of this was just the final straw.
I have a few people who love and care for me, and my ex for everything I've said genuinely cares and wanted to make it work when we were both in better life situations. The saddest thing is I just don't think that's going to happen. Another week or two is what I'm giving myself, and if I can't find a reasonable solution I'm taking my exit bag to the nearest arboretum or wilderness area and going out on my own terms.
Sorry for the rant, I'm usually the one trying to cheer people up and have them try for another day, but it's hard to take my own advice.
I struggle with cptsd, anxiety, depression and a couple other issues, and Covid really has come in and decided to put the nail in. Everyone in my life I've supported and loved has turned around and only decided to support me by "being a shoulder to lean on". It's really tiring when all anyone has to say is "Oh, that really sucks! I hope it works out. We're here to talk if you need to!". Talking is nice, I need tangible help. My ex leaving me due to all of this was just the final straw.
I have a few people who love and care for me, and my ex for everything I've said genuinely cares and wanted to make it work when we were both in better life situations. The saddest thing is I just don't think that's going to happen. Another week or two is what I'm giving myself, and if I can't find a reasonable solution I'm taking my exit bag to the nearest arboretum or wilderness area and going out on my own terms.
Sorry for the rant, I'm usually the one trying to cheer people up and have them try for another day, but it's hard to take my own advice.