Another day

[new.solution1]

I will have to take this day by day.

I hope whatever happens happens soon.

My desperation is once again greater than ever before.

I feel comfort in knowing that I am closer to death. I feel tremendous discomfort in knowing that I could keep on feeling better, and having this stall forever. At a certain point, I will have to CTB regardless that I keep feeling better. Still, that decision does not feel close by. This is not good. This is terrible.

I don't want there to be proof that I will get better, but that is what is necessary for me to not CTB. I do not want it, because I know it is not possible. Still, my mind keeps on hankering for a way out. Unfortunately, all it comes up with is that I can get over it, there will be a miracle, I need to try harder. That does not make facts untrue.

 

[Euthanza]

You don't have to CTB if you feel the time is not yet right or not confident enough about the method. I hope the fact is in your favor.

 

[outrider567]

I will have to take this day by day.

I hope whatever happens happens soon.

My desperation is once again greater than ever before.

I feel comfort in knowing that I am closer to death. I feel tremendous discomfort in knowing that I could keep on feeling better, and having this stall forever. At a certain point, I will have to CTB regardless that I keep feeling better. Still, that decision does not feel close by. This is not good. This is terrible.

I don't want there to be proof that I will get better, but that is what is necessary for me to not CTB. I do not want it, because I know it is not possible. Still, my mind keeps on hankering for a way out. Unfortunately, all it comes up with is that I can get over it, there will be a miracle, I need to try harder. That does not make facts untrue.

My own thoughts also, except that I don't feel better, and don't expect to

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be really hard to deal with what you are going through. I hope that you find relief from your suffering in whatever you decide.

 

[Fktw0rld]

I'm right there with you. Hoping for miraculous changes but can't fight the inevitable.

Respect

 

[Autumn11]

I hope you end up well