Another day

[qwerty1969]

The only positive about living another day is that technically you are one day closer to dying.

 

[missingpeace]

Biding my time as well..

 

[FuneralCry]

This is very true and I feel the same way. At least no matter what this existence will end someday and won't even exist as a distant memory. Death solves what the true problem is which is life itself and the thought of being unable to suffer for all eternity comforts me. The way that I see it, the only true relief from the torture of existing can be found through leaving this world.

 

[Anonymus]

Another day... I feel like crying, but my eyes only get reddish... but everything sucks.
Every day that passes is inevitably worse than the previous one,... maybe it's my age, I will soon be 45 and I know that nothing will get better and that I will get worse little by little.

Every time I am assessed for disability and my disability is upgraded, it is as if my mind is being beaten, it leaves me very weak emotionally. This time, but... it affects me a lot.
I don't want to have to go through everything that awaits me from now on: obvious worsening of chronic illnesses both physical and mental... my fear that hinders possible treatments... my mother who will soon be 79 years old and is the one who keeps me in this world (and I see she is already tired of all this)... I am tired too.

I am very afraid of CTB, I don't dare... I don't know what I am doing here, I am confused and I don't feel well at all. It is obvious that I am going to die anyway, I just have to choose whether to do it suffering (natural death) or to do it without suffering (CTB).
Everything is going to shit...

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Un altre día... jo es que tinc ganes de plorar, però els ulls només se'm posen vermellosos.. però tot és un fàstic.
Cada día que passa és inevitablement pitjor que l'anterior,... potser és l'edat, aviat faré 45 anys i se que res millorarà i que m'aniré trobant pitjor de mica en mica.

Cada cop que m'avaluen la discapacitat i me la pugen de grau es com si em golpegessin la ment, em deixa molt feble anímicament. Aquesta vegada, però... m'afecta molt.
No vull haver de passar per tot el que m'espera d'ara endavant: empitjorament evident de les malaties cròniques tan físiques com mentals.. la meva por que dificulta els possibles tractaments... la meva mare que farà aviat 79 anys i és la que em manté en aquest món (i veig que està cansada ja de tot plegat).. jo també estic cansat.

Em fa molta por el CTB, no m'atreveixo.. no se pas que pinto aquí, estic confós i no em trobo gens bé. És evident que moriré igualment, només he de triar si fer-ho patint (mort natural) o fer-ho sense patir (CTB).
Tot s'en va a la merda...

 

[Darkover]

good point and very ture i never understood why we celebrate brithdays because it just one year closer to death

 

[qwerty1969]

I hate my life

 

[zephenix]

Waking up is the worst: another day on this wretched earth.