another birthday

[willitpass]

i told myself from the age of 11 i would never live to see 18. i was so mad the day i turned 17. on my 18th i was in a recovery period and actually happy. soon to be 20. wish it wasn't coming. i hate birthdays. especially milestone birthdays. i never should have made it this far, but i don't plan on leaving before the end of the year so i will have to make it anyway. hopefully i never reach 21

 

[jodes2]

Sorry you're still here at least you're here, making SS a better place sorry you're suffering

 

[Harasaki]

My friend, I've been suicidal since I was 12 and I swore a never would turn 15, after that 18, then 21, now it's 25. I'm 23 now so...
To be honest I really feel like I should've ended it at 12, would have avoided a lot of unecessary shit.
Anyways, I hope you have a nice day on your birthday at least <3

 

[FuneralCry]

I also hate birthdays, to me the thought of ageing is horrific, I wish I left at a much earlier date as it would have prevented so much suffering. I don't want anymore days or years, I'm tired enough of existing. Your feelings are understandable but I wish you the best.

 

[Starryeyes]

I hate my birthday too. I have to turn down anyone who wants to try 'celebrate' with me. I have nothing to celebrate the day my mother decided to carry on her pregnancy with me knowing I would be born alcohol dependent. This is why I'm so scared to ctb. If I get 'reunited' with her in any sort of afterlife I'll be back to square one.

 

[hopeless302]

I was planning to ctb before my last birthday, but as usual, I never got it around to it. It'll happen when it happens, I guess....

 

[imcurious]

I made a very similar post on SS when I turned 20 a few months ago, too. I understand that it might sting a little more because it's a supposed milestone. I will still wish you a peaceful day. My PMs are always open to any venting if you need it.

 

[Nirrend]

i told myself from the age of 11 i would never live to see 18. i was so mad the day i turned 17. on my 18th i was in a recovery period and actually happy. soon to be 20. wish it wasn't coming. i hate birthdays. especially milestone birthdays. i never should have made it this far, but i don't plan on leaving before the end of the year so i will have to make it anyway. hopefully i never reach 21

Hi sweet @willitpass

I'm sorry you're going through this and suffering so much today ❤

I guess every anniversary brings to mind more years of suffering in your life, a distance from the past that broke you or you miss perhaps?

I understand, being aware of time passing is both scary but also overwhelming to see that we don't have control over it all

I don't know if I can, but I'd like to wish you a happy birthday anyway and tell you that we love you ❤

You are strong

I wish you a good day despite the pain you have ❤

Love ❤

 

[aladdin]

Dude, you're such a baby! I wish I could be that young again. 21 is a fun age. That's when you become legal. I think you should experience life at that age.

I celebrated my birthdays fine till I turned 25. Now, every year comes with birthday depression. Aging is a curse.