willitpass
Don’t try to offer me help, I’ve tried everything
- Mar 10, 2020
- 2,865
I'm so bitter anymore. Years of mental illness have worn me down into a cynic. I get angry at everything. The weather not being right, my shipment coming after the date it said it would, having to do laundry, for people chewing too loud or dragging their feet when they walk. I get angry at myself. For being this way, for not trying hard enough, for trying too hard, for being lazy, for being too productive. I'm furious at myself for not being able to overcome SI. I'm filled with spite. I never used to be angry. I used to just be sad and numb. Now I'm sad and numb and angry.