Anger at having to go through the trouble of killing myself

[deflationary]

Does anyone feel this? Not anger at the things driving you to suicide, but anger at the fact that you have to go through all of this nonsense surrounding death itself. Wondering about the effects on other people, SI, the method and the logistics. It's all a bunch of bullshit. I'm already driven to the point of despair, now I have to deal with all of this shit as well? It's fucking unfair. I just want a button that deletes my existence and everyone's memory of it.

 

[eternalmelancholy]

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What the hell is wrong with you? This person is pouring their heart out and you tell them tough shit? This place is becoming increasingly hostile.

To the OP - I know what you are saying. For me it is more of a mix of frustration and resentment than pure anger. None of us asked to be born. It is bullshit that we are driven to take our own lives. But I guess that is the price to pay for avoiding all future pain, misery and humiliation. You have to pay the price upfront when you CTB.

 

[deflationary]

What the hell is wrong with you? This person is pouring their heart out and you tell them tough shit? This place is becoming increasingly hostile.

He's mad at me because we got into an argument in another thread and I was probably too hostile myself:

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...ive-so-badly-covid-vaccine.76597/post-1377775

Anyway, this isn't the place to continue that so let's all move on.

To the OP - I know what you are saying. For me it is more of a mix of frustration and resentment than pure anger. None of us asked to be born. It is bullshit that we are driven to take our own lives. But I guess that is the price to pay for avoiding all future pain, misery and humiliation. You have to pay the price upfront when you CTB.

Yeah, it's still the lesser of the two evils. But fuck. It's not right that the options are all just varieties of evil.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you would be angry. It is very difficult to commit suicide as we are programmed to survive. The society denies us access to peaceful methods and an option of euthanasia, so we are forced to resort to methods that could fail. I wish it was easier to exit, if it was I would already be gone.

 

[OceanBlue]

Completely understand, the whole process is sad and tedious, yet could have been avoided if I weren't forced into existence in the first place.

The whole idea of looking for ways to make your flesh stop inhaling air so it can start rotting is grotesque.

Hope the OP is OK, whatever that means for them.

 

[hopelessgirl]

Does anyone feel this? Not anger at the things driving you to suicide, but anger at the fact that you have to go through all of this nonsense surrounding death itself. Wondering about the effects on other people, SI, the method and the logistics. It's all a bunch of bullshit. I'm already driven to the point of despair, now I have to deal with all of this shit as well? It's fucking unfair. I just want a button that deletes my existence and everyone's memory of it.

Totally!

 

[jimmy7754]

It's the worse part