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Jamesun

Jamesun

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Feb 23, 2022
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Hi, yep, sorry again, I need to vent a bit lately I've been feeling like one more burden for everyone, my friends and even my girlfriend.
No, but thinking that everything is my fault for overthinking things, I'm afraid that my friends or especially my girlfriend will leave me, i don't know what to do, I'm afraid of everything.
 
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MrDarkness

MrDarkness

Left sasu, to improve my life
Jun 18, 2023
1,066
Been there before, I always fear that people will leave me due to me being a burden, I suggest taking medication as it helped me for awhile, I need a higher dose, this is the best option I can suggest, just me tho
 
Jamesun

Jamesun

No longer human.
Feb 23, 2022
127
Been there before, I always fear that people will leave me due to me being a burden, I suggest taking medication as it helped me for awhile, I need a higher dose, this is the best option I can suggest, just me tho
I'm taking a couple of drugs fluoxetine and methylphenidate but I don't see any changes I even felt worse and for some reason the methylphenidate causes me agitation and a feeling of anxiety.
 
MrDarkness

MrDarkness

Left sasu, to improve my life
Jun 18, 2023
1,066
I'm taking a couple of drugs fluoxetine and methylphenidate but I don't see any changes I even felt worse and for some reason the methylphenidate causes me agitation and a feeling of anxiety.
I take fluoxetine, the biggest issue with it, is that it wears off, you prolly need a higher dose, it usually used as a temp issue not permanent due to it. As for the second one, it probably doesn't work with your brain? How long have you been on methylphenidate?
 
Jamesun

Jamesun

No longer human.
Feb 23, 2022
127
I take fluoxetine, the biggest issue with it, is that it wears off, you prolly need a higher dose, it usually used as a temp issue not permanent due to it. As for the second one, it probably doesn't work with your brain? How long have you been on methylphenidate?
Regarding fluoxetine, I am a little afraid of causing myself harm, although maybe I will try something with it, and regarding methylphenidate, I have been taking it since February of this year, both were prescribed at the same time.
 
MrDarkness

MrDarkness

Left sasu, to improve my life
Jun 18, 2023
1,066
Regarding fluoxetine, I am a little afraid of causing myself harm, although maybe I will try something with it, and regarding methylphenidate, I have been taking it since February of this year, both were prescribed at the same time.
Yeah so it's been more then 2 weeks which means any of the downside of the meds would wear off, yeah I suggest seeing if you can get your med change, cause it shouldn't make your anxiety worse, as for fluoxetine, they will probably recommend a higher dose or changing it, it takes forever to find the right cocktail of drugs for people
 
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WetBallJones

Member
Jun 30, 2023
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Hi, yep, sorry again, I need to vent a bit lately I've been feeling like one more burden for everyone, my friends and even my girlfriend.
No, but thinking that everything is my fault for overthinking things, I'm afraid that my friends or especially my girlfriend will leave me, i don't know what to do, I'm afraid of everything.
I have had such a fear of abandonment my whole life and i manifested it this week into my girlfriend leaving me…I am so heartbroken i can't even get out of bed i haven't eaten in nearly 4 days. words can't describe how empty i feel
 
Jamesun

Jamesun

No longer human.
Feb 23, 2022
127
Yeah so it's been more then 2 weeks which means any of the downside of the meds would wear off, yeah I suggest seeing if you can get your med change, cause it shouldn't make your anxiety worse, as for fluoxetine, they will probably recommend a higher dose or changing it, it takes forever to find the right cocktail of drugs for people
Ok thanks for the advice I've really been feeling horrible lately, I really think that generalized anxiety disorder has been on the rise these past few months.
 
MrDarkness

MrDarkness

Left sasu, to improve my life
Jun 18, 2023
1,066
Ok thanks for the advice I've really been feeling horrible lately, I really think that generalized anxiety disorder has been on the rise these past few months.
I suffer from very bad anxiety so, I'm in the same boat, I've had headshakes due to my meds wearing off, I hope your able to find the right dose, If you need to talk my dms are always open
 
Jamesun

Jamesun

No longer human.
Feb 23, 2022
127
I suffer from very bad anxiety so, I'm in the same boat, I've had headshakes due to my meds wearing off, I hope your able to find the right dose, If you need to talk my dms are always open
Ok thanks right now I need to talk a little, I really don't know people who are in a similar situation.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,242
To me it's really understandable having dread for the future as existence is uncertain. It's awful how existing here can very easily get much worse, causing one to suffer even more.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
13,244
Hi, yep, sorry again, I need to vent a bit lately I've been feeling like one more burden for everyone, my friends and even my girlfriend.
No, but thinking that everything is my fault for overthinking things, I'm afraid that my friends or especially my girlfriend will leave me, i don't know what to do, I'm afraid of everything.
Venting can be a relief in the short term and it is necessary sometimes. Overthinking stuff in general isn't a good idea because it can lead to "mind-loops" but yes I'm aware that just saying this isn't as easy as really not overthinking everything too much. I hope you can find peace.
 
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aGoodDayToDie

Arcanist
Jun 30, 2023
459
Best you can do is just take things one day at a time. Love in the now. Do things to cement your relationships. Then hopefully they will last. Always be on the lookout for more friends too. You can never have too many friends. Keep going, you're doing fine
 

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