Venting An attempt at apology

[Buh-bye!]

This is going to be a very temporary post, ' me to me ' sort of a post.
I feel really, ' heavy ' because of this thing and now ( as in right now ) i can't hold it in. Whenever that happens i make a post on this website. My account is flooded with vents that make no sense and often even contradict one another.
This is about my account here too.
I log onto this website and every time i see people legit hurting, being in all sorts of pain, trying to talk it out sometimes even wanting to be heard and interacted with etc. I see people coming here posting things that i once felt, going through what i once went through and i see no replies at any of the people's posts sometimes. Even if there are replies they are mostly just, sort of generic you know. but that's not all bothersome, the world is shitty and we can't possibly have enough time to cater to one another's needs when we're ourselves in deep shit. Well, that is what bothers me. I just can't interact with people being in the emotional state i am right now. I mean try to, try to write things to let some know i really genuinely acknowledge their existence, often even follow them. But that now feels forced, like i don't want to do it because my mind is always into my shit and yeah.
Alright leaving now you all.
For real this time.
Bye, Night.

 

[bankai]

Some of the posts leave me pretty numb. I just exit the thread sometimes without posting anything. I'll Leave a hug instead maybe? I know I want to die and all, but some of these people have had much tougher lives. That's just a fact. It doesn't change the absolute fact that I want to die as well. But I know they've had it much worse. Some have had it much worse than others. At those times I wonder, is this site doing more harm to me than good perhaps.But still, we're all here for each other. That makes life a little better till the time comes.