Story An Anhedonic's Nearly Perfect Day

[BeansOfRequirement]

Woke up a while before the alarm, no pull or push factors that drive me to get out of bed so I snooze for an hour or two despite not needing more sleep. This is the imperfect part of the day. Then for breakfast I had just the right amount of: oatmeal (a little under two servings), boiled eggs (a little less than two) and coffee (around 3 or four cups, the measurement, not actual cups). The laptop shut down whilst browsing SS and I didn't get any negative emotional reaction from that.

At noon I decided to start hitting the gym again, I had only done light home exercises up until this point. I had obviously lost strength but my physique was fine and I had lost weight (mostly fat). I could only do three chin-ups-ish (not chin-ups since the grips forced my hands into more of a mix between chins and pull-ups, I prefer real chin-ups and find them easier) but I was able to use a 20kg kettle-bell for the cleans and the presses or whatever they're called. Did many repetitions of that and added a little swing since I'm using kettle-bells for my cardio. My grip strength got a real workout as when I went to do some light dead-lifts (only like 70% bw) nothing felt like it got a workout except my cardiovascular and my forearms, lmao. Finished with some push-ups since my grip was completely fatigued, meaning that I could not do anything that would involve gripping.

After the workout I looked fucking ripped and very strong (yes, this could be delusional), I'm very happy with my starting position.

Showered and made a low-calorie, high protein lunch. For some cheap carbs I went with ramen, pour that soup shit out after it's done for the kidneys. Got some high protein yogurt-ish thingy in there along with some sunflower and chia seeds. Tossed some tomatoes and spinach in there, too. To drink had a cup of whey.

I can't feel excitement or pleasure but I appreciate not having the "tfw no gf" feel and also not having much anxiety/stress. Still want to die, but whatever.

So that's it, having more coffee now. Going to use this thread to log any workout progress or especially good days, etc.

Feel free to add your own workouts/progress/diet or good days in this thread.

 

[Mentalmick]

Just looked up workout in the dictionary, then a video on YouTube. I'm now in intensive care after suffering a quadruple heart attack. I hope you're pleased.

 

[Livingvsdying25]

I'm hoping to start going to th3 gym next week but starting in March for sure!!!

Love to see ur diet and workout plan and I hope it goes well!!

I'm still tryna figure out the best diet for me/the one I wanna follow.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Love to see ur diet and workout plan and I hope it goes well!!

No specific plans or diets, lifestyle change. The diet will be low calorie, high protein, high micros. Would like to stay at my current weight but burn fat, gain muscle and improve general conditioning. We can be workout buddies.

 

[Makko]

You're way ahead of me. Out of all that, the only thing I do is the yogurt.

 

[Mentalmick]

You're way ahead of me. Out of all that, the only thing I do is the yogurt.

I eat that fage 0% fat stuff. A lot.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

All-right, check this lunch out: Can of tuna, kidney beans, low calorie protein yogurt, peanut butter, spinach, tomatoes, chia seeds, sunflower seeds. Mash all of that together. Some milk with that and coffee afterwards. I believe this is the sort of thing that everyone posts on normie social media so maybe I should join one.

 

[x~Sophia~x]

All-right, check this lunch out: Can of tuna, kidney beans, low calorie protein yogurt, peanut butter, spinach, tomatoes, chia seeds, sunflower seeds. Mash all of that together.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Yeah, well, not many are able to eat what it takes to recover from hardcore gym sessions. To me, eating my favorite food as opposed to that bowl of pure nutrients doesn't have an effect on my quality of life.

 

[Makko]

All-right, check this lunch out: Can of tuna, kidney beans, low calorie protein yogurt, peanut butter, spinach, tomatoes, chia seeds, sunflower seeds. Mash all of that together. Some milk with that and coffee afterwards. I believe this is the sort of thing that everyone posts on normie social media so maybe I should join one.

Does it have a lot of flavor or do all the flavors cancel each other out? I think if I did something like that I'd add a bit of vinegar or worcestershire sauce for seasoning.

Some other things to throw in could be hard-boiled eggs and avocado, and quinoa instead of kidney beans. I might actually try this.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Does it have a lot of flavor or do all the flavors cancel each other out? I think if I did something like that I'd add a bit of vinegar or worcestershire sauce for seasoning.

Some other things to throw in could be hard-boiled eggs and avocado, and quinoa instead of kidney beans. I might actually try this.

Great ideas, my biggest tip is to not go too hard with any one ingredient, including possible sauces or spices.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

All-right, so I needed two full recovery days and still wasn't feeling 100% when I hit the gym. My strength, endurance and energy was more than cut in half compared to my last gym session. My diet was very clean, maybe too few calories? Still got some shit done: light dead-lifts for cardio, grips and deadlift-NS-function, some light kettle-bell work, hit some angle bench press thing, leg-press and a chin-up as well. My grip strength is the weakest in the chain, reducing my work-capacity severely in the gym. After that comes the cardio. Having a big protein shake now, maybe I need to increase the protein intake? I'll just experiment with various factors and shit, I have lots of time.

Attractive woman at gym, I really would prefer it if they used their own gym...

 

[Mentalmick]

Attractive woman at gym, I really would prefer it if they used their own gym...

No doubt wearing super tight gym gear which makes it nigh on impossible for anyone to look at anything but the floor for fear of having a unfortunate episode downstairs. And this is coming from an a-sexual. Women and their curves, what's the world to do about it.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

No doubt wearing super tight gym gear which makes it nigh on impossible for anyone to look at anything but the floor for fear of having a unfortunate episode downstairs. And this is coming from an a-sexual. Women and their curves, what's the world to do about it.

They can't just wear slacks and a large T-shirt, for some reason. It's always skin-tight clothing, nice hair and even fucking make-up. Thanks to jacking off so much my brain is at least somewhat desensitized so I don't get more than 30% "enlargement" in public. I also didn't bring my glasses, my vision is good enough for running around / fighting / etc, but details in the distance is missed, so that helped a bit. I think that it would be better to have the 20/20 though, so that you can find flaws in the facial structure and decrease the pH-levels of the grapes.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Fucking hell, today was one of the worst days of the year. My digestion is still adjusting to the protein shakes and my brain was rebelling against having too much caffeine yesterday. I also had my regular psychological problem start acting up again. Still positive since I got a small workout in and the diet wasn't that bad, going to have a healthy dinner later, too. If i didn't have the workouts and my meditation practice I would probably be in the gutter, chugging vodka and eating sweets or something. Even if you feel like shit, it would be even worse if you didn't take care of yourself to the extent that you did.

Whether you want to die or not, having energy and not being completely unstable is always good.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

This thread is basically my diary now, lol. So I realized I have a few things that I actually look forward to. I look forward to progress in the gym and I suppose it will be good to try a vocational education to see if I am now mentally stable enough to do what I up until this point could not. These things are far from enough to keep me from suicide-prepping, but it's still something.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Ok, another one. Yesterday and today up until this point was a 9/10 on suicidality. No energy, irritability, "the whole nine" . I was in the worst mental shape of the year. I did manage to spontaneously snap out of, starting about an hour ago. I first decided to get neurotic and start doing chores in the same way my dad does them, semi-frantically. Cut my nails and started up a bath, did some light cleaning. Was energized and angry whilst doing this, I was thinking things along the lines of "fuck this life", "fuck this planet", "fuck you, drawer", "whatever, I'll kill myself later, fuck", etc.

I took a bath and in the bath stopped myself from going to my usual state of emptiness and wallowing, replacing it with more neurotic motivations. "I have too high of a body fat percentage, this makes me a pussy, etc." So right after my bath I hit the gym-- hard. I barely rested and did my bench and deadlifts, breathing hard and sweating profusely throughout the entire workout. Not even bothering to remove my sweatshirt, lmfao.

Got back, made protein shake and feel more energized and have discovered a great coping strategy-- using my natural neuroticism to escape from itself. Anger and neuroticism, excessive chore-doing and exercise seems to be the way forward. The next step would be to get a job or get into my education of choice and later becoming a workaholic.

 

[Makko]

The next step would be to get a job or get into my education of choice and later becoming a workaholic.

Good. Let the wageslavery flow through you.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Dear diary,

I'm becoming more edgy again, this is somehow doubling my appetite and energy levels in the gym. Will watch out so I don't over-eat and make sure to clog my digestive track with whey protein.

 

[aneurysm]

I decided to start hitting the gym again

sounds terrifying

I really would prefer it if they used their own gym...

They can't just wear slacks and a large T-shirt, for some reason.

sounds like my man would enjoy sharia law

I'm becoming more edgy again

same lmao. I need to be careful or it won't be long until I get banned from here lol.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Another gf meme.

 

[Mentalmick]

Another gf meme.
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So that's what a woman looks like. Wow, she's pretty hot, what with the green dress and all.

 

[Makko]

Another gf meme.
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What is this mythical beast? Your gf memes get more bizarre and unbelievable every time but now you've crossed a line.

 

[Lmd]

Another gf meme.
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I'm so sorry for her...

 

[Toptock]

Since i started mediating i worked up to a good time, now when i get up I'll meditate for 5 to ten minutes, I'll do 200 to 500 crunches and take a shower. My favorite breakfast is grape nuts, but lately i haven't had fruit to add. Its really cool you're still able to find time to get to the gym.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Its really cool you're still able to find time to get to the gym.

What? I'm a NEET bro.

 

[Toptock]

noon I decided to start hitting the gym again,

So am i misreading this then?
Or the other times you say "hit the gym" lol

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

So am i misreading this then?
Or the other times you say "hit the gym" lol

What?

 

[Toptock]

When you said "i hit the gym" i assumed you went out to do it. If you're saying you have a home gym then that's fine. I just wanted to be supportive and say I'm glad some people have found the time to take care of themselves. I'm honestly a bit surprised we've had this misunderstanding.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

When you said "i hit the gym" i assumed you went out to do it. If you're saying you have a home gym then that's fine. I just wanted to be supportive and say I'm glad some people have found the time to take care of themselves. I'm honestly a bit surprised we've had this misunderstanding.

I'm not angry at you lol, I just didn't understand what you wrote. I used to do bodyweight exercises at home, I then started going to the gym.