I was planning overdose of amitriptyline + axphyxia(exit bag alternative- lock me in a big container like a.. cold room, or giant freezer, but but unplugged , i think.. the idea is to minimize the possibility to undone the bag/set up/ for axphyxia/oxygen deprivation) .But i M Afraid , if i wake up , because of insuficient sedatif drugs.. can you wake up , in awfull fear or pain , with the exit bag method , even with good sedative drug, just, because of agony lmao ?
The issue with sn is tachycardia for me.Tachycardia is related with some of my ptsd symptom, so, with mental et physical pain, i need propanolol if i want it peacefull.(doctor refuse to give me this fucking drug, so if i want propanolol, i have to get it on the darknet, with all thid bitcoin and monero stuff that i find hard to learn with my actual mental state )+ its seems not really totally painless (puke is not really enjoyable)and there is survival.. but sn seems ok to me, if i can obtain propanolol, (and a reliable sn, i suppose most of sn failed attempts is because unreliable sn )because if it fails, well, .. no major damage on brain/organism(but pain et psycholoical shock maybe, .. is why im a little afraid of this option, because i will have to think about the eventuality .. that i can survive and have to do it again and again until i die,)