(AMA) My Personal Experience With Partial Hanging

[anomic]

Hey! I am much too lazy to type out an entire explanation about every step of my experience as I have retold this story in its full extent about a bazillion times to numerous mental health professionals so I decided to make this post. I'm open to answering any technical questions about the innerworkings and hopefully my experience can come to benefit at least one of you. This attempt took place around new years and I do not have any lasting impacts on my physical wellbeing and I will answer questions to the best of my ability. Ask away!

 

[liza]

were you able to pass out? How did u position the rope may I ask

 

[anomic]

were you able to pass out? How did u position the rope may I ask

I passed out within like half a second. I didn't feel any sort of incoming warnings or anything I just kneeled down and was out. I explicitly remember right before I passed out I thought to myself "This is uncomfortable I'm going to stand up" but evidently, didn't stand up in time. (I mainly assume this was just an SI thought to get me to stand) I then woke up but could only hear and I dont remember mcuh from that other than hearing how loud I was and thinking "Okay I need to be quieter and I'm probably just passing out" but it took me until I had all my senses to realize what was actually going on. It wasn't painful whatsoever and it was about as minimum in terms of uncomfortable as it gets for dying. The rope was tied directly above me and the knot was at the back of my kneck. I tightened it around my neck as much as possible before leaning down. I had my knees bent down but the positioning was pretty bad they were just bent my legs were weren't tucked forward or back which I think caused me to regain consciousness. I can touch more on the whole regaining consciousness part if you'd like but I tried to stick to just your question!

 

[liza]

I passed out within like half a second. I didn't feel any sort of incoming warnings or anything I just kneeled down and was out. I explicitly remember right before I passed out I thought to myself "This is uncomfortable I'm going to stand up" but evidently, didn't stand up in time. (I mainly assume this was just an SI thought to get me to stand) I then woke up but could only hear and I dont remember mcuh from that other than hearing how loud I was and thinking "Okay I need to be quieter and I'm probably just passing out" but it took me until I had all my senses to realize what was actually going on. It wasn't painful whatsoever and it was about as minimum in terms of uncomfortable as it gets for dying. The rope was tied directly above me and the knot was at the back of my kneck. I tightened it around my neck as much as possible before leaning down. I had my knees bent down but the positioning was pretty bad they were just bent my legs were weren't tucked forward or back which I think caused me to regain consciousness. I can touch more on the whole regaining consciousness part if you'd like but I tried to stick to just your question!

Ok thanks a lot. Can u tell me where you positioned the rope like in the middle of your neck, top of the neck or below the neck? I can't pass out at all I usually abort the mission because I'm hanging there for a minute not passing out still. And what king of ligature did you use thin or thick? And was it a rope

 

[anomic]

Can u tell me where you positioned the rope like in the middle of your neck, top of the neck or below the neck?

Yes of course I'd be happy to answer! I positioned the rope above my adams apple and the bruise that was left was just above it.

And what king of ligature did you use thin or thick? And was it a rope

I have no idea the kind of rope that was used as I honestly had it planned for so long so I dont recollect where it was obtained from but the rope was a "flat" rope that looked almost like this:

The rope I used was about a thumbs width.

I had also failed the day before this close call attempt due to backing out after 5 seconds or so (yeah im a pussy I know ) but this attempt somehow got perfectly lucky.

 

[liza]

Yes of course I'd be happy to answer! I positioned the rope above my adams apple and the bruise that was left was just above it.

I have no idea the kind of rope that was used as I honestly had it planned for so long so I dont recollect where it was obtained from but the rope was a "flat" rope that looked almost like this:
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The rope I used was about a thumbs width.

I had also failed the day before this close call attempt due to backing out after 5 seconds or so (yeah im a pussy I know ) but this attempt somehow got perfectly lucky.

Thank you so much. Do you have any advice for me? Cause I can't pass out and it gets very painful just hanging there not being able to lose consciousness…I'm trying to find my sweet spot

 

[anomic]

Thank you so much. Do you have any advice for me? Cause I can't pass out and it gets very painful just hanging there not being able to lose consciousness…I'm trying to find my sweet spot

Not much advice from me honestly sadly. For me I practiced a lot with finding my pulse and squeezing there and while I could never fully pass out I found the sorta sweet spot where I could feel that tingly feeling. For the rope after consulting with AI and looking at pictures of different ropes it seems the rope I had might've been mule tape (dont quote me on that) but mule tape seems to have the same properties. Another thing is from what I hear if someone has a reliable anchor point for full suspension (which personally I didnt) that is normally a lot easier to compress the carotids and CTB with. I wish you the best of luck with your journey and I hope you can find peace in whatever decision you end up with. Hope this thread helped ^_^

Edit: For any lurkers I feel completely certain that it was mule tape I watched a few youtube videos of mule tape as well and it seems almost identical in every way. (and no it doesnt stick like the typical adhesive tape does) It is used for pulling cables through conduits and usually has a tensile strength of 600-4000lbs (272-1814 kg)

 

[liza]

Not much advice from me honestly sadly. For me I practiced a lot with finding my pulse and squeezing there and while I could never fully pass out I found the sorta sweet spot where I could feel that tingly feeling. For the rope after consulting with AI and looking at pictures of different ropes it seems the rope I had might've been mule tape (dont quote me on that) but mule tape seems to have the same properties. Another thing is from what I hear if someone has a reliable anchor point for full suspension (which personally I didnt) that is normally a lot easier to compress the carotids and CTB with. I wish you the best of luck with your journey and I hope you can find peace in whatever decision you end up with. Hope this thread helped ^_^

Edit: For any lurkers I feel completely certain that it was mule tape I watched a few youtube videos of mule tape as well and it seems almost identical in every way. (and no it doesnt stick like the typical adhesive tape does) It is used for pulling cables through conduits and usually has a tensile strength of 600-4000lbs (272-1814 kg)

Thanks for being informative again. I wish you the best too. I'm gonna probably practice again I just hope I eventually find ny sweet spot :/

 

[ilovenewyork]

If you passed out, were you discovered?

 

[anomic]

Thanks for being informative again. I wish you the best too. I'm gonna probably practice again I just hope I eventually find ny sweet spot :/

Good idea! Everyone's body is different so definitely I think one of the biggest parts is finding where your pulse lies the strongest! I also am relatively skinny with very little neck muscles so I would keep that in mind!

If you passed out, were you discovered?

I was not discovered luckily. I did end up voluntarily going to a hospital to get checked up on in case of any major damage but I was fine. I received an EKG, CTA, blood testing, and a verbal checkup for brain functionality. They monitored my vitals as well before sending me for a psychological evaluation, then an inpatient stay. I don't necessarily know why I woke up again but I assume my convulsions and my bad leg placement caused my carotids to deliver just enough blood to gain conscience then voluntarily stand up in a moment of pure adrenaline and panic.

 

[lpdsvm]

I also consider it more than SN. After passing out using syncope I realized it's so much faster. If I am hanging the second I pass out, pressure etc will be applied and if I feel it all somehow I doubt it will last long.