Venting Am I right in caring less and less about the feeling of my brother and mother?

[KillingPain267]

A month ago my mother (spontaneously) said if I ctb that would be the end of her. I felt pity... but less and less I felt less and less pity since I am in deep pain just existing, and doctors are not at all helping me. So what choice do I have? Am I The Asshole in planning my (sudden) exist (by SN) in about a month, even though it would hurt my brother, mother and father?

 

[theboy]

A defense of your brain

 

[Alexei_Kirillov]

The same thing happened to me. Once I started seriously planning my CTB, I started caring less and less about my family's reaction, until I reached the point I'm at now where I pretty much just don't care at all and it has absolutely no impact on my decision or my feelings surrounding my decision. I can't even conceive of grief or love anymore, they seem like totally foreign, mythical concepts.

To answer the question in your title, I don't think this response is "right," but on the other hand I also don't think it's wrong. It just is. I observe it without judgement.

 

[sugarh1gh]

I think the question of am I being selfish always lies when thinking of ctb. But for me at some point I don't even care about how others would be affected. Honestly, I don't think it's my fault.

Especially, when you communicated about your plan to ctb, and yet they didn't/couldn't do anything, it's on them not me. And they should respect my choices of ending my own life.

 

[albstr1403]

You can still worry about how they feel. But if you're facing extreme suffering, you need to worry about how you feel more.

 

[Dusk till dawn]

You don't have any obligation to care about what anyone's emotions after your death, it's your own decision to decide whether you should care about their emotions or not

 

[FuneralCry]

Suicide is a personal decision, it's not about others after all. Nobody could have consented to this existence anyway, instead it was so unfairly forced on us so guilt tripping suicidal people for making a decision in which they have a right to make is disgusting to me.

Suicide is a human right and it's so selfish to expect people to continue suffering in this existence until they inevitably die anyway, if someone wants to cease existing on their own terms it's simply not the decision of others to make.