Am I out of hope if I cannot obtain SN or N?

[qpsns]

I cannot afford SN or N.

I tried partial but it did not work because of SI.

I tried jumping out of the window but I got scared so I quit.

I thought of dying by starvation but it does not seem to be effective.

Should I just give up ctbing if I cannot get SN or N?

 

[CommitSudoku]

It's up to you what you do and I don't think anyone else should make that decision for you. No one will know your story completely or what you're capable of handling or trying. You could certainly save up for SN or N, and there's nothing wrong with giving up on it and other methods either. I'd say to perhaps try to take some time to think through your options again and what you want and what you feel is best for you. Best wishes whatever you decide to do.

 

[VoidDesirer22]

You cannot budget to afford SN? You have time before it disappears from the market like N.

 

[qpsns]

You cannot budget to afford SN? You have time before it disappears from the market like N.

In my country SN and N are illegal

 

[Shu]

Please don't do it brother. Please Give yourself some time. Your choice at the end of the day.

 

[Someone123]

I cannot afford SN or N.

I tried partial but it did not work because of SI.

I tried jumping out of the window but I got scared so I quit.

I thought of dying by starvation but it does not seem to be effective.

Should I just give up ctbing if I cannot get SN or N?

There are other methods but it's your choice if you want to explore them- all methods are scary when you get close to trying them. But people here should not push you in the direction of what emthods to do, it is your choice if you want to.

 

[cordolium]

take everything one day at a time. yes theres other methods but think long and hard. maybe you not being able to get it is a sign to keep going.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are in this situation. I am trapped in this world as it is very difficult for me to ctb personally, I understand. We all deserve the option of a peaceful exit at a time of our own choosing, our right to die should always be respected. I could never do jumping and hanging scares me because of the fear of failure. I feel like only you know what you should do, it is your life and your decision and I know that it can be awful when all you want is to leave, but yet you cannot. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[golfmavenice]

I am thinking about H2S gas, over 2000 people CTB by this method since 2007 and it has a %95 success rate. All you need is lime sulfur and acid. 120 mL of each chemical would produce 1000 ppm(lethal in minutes) in a 3,300 L cabin volume. Mixing 1 liters of each chemical in a confined space will result in certain death.

 

[its-about-time]

It's going to be scary no matter what. Maybe that's enough of a reason to keep trying to make life more tolerable.

 

[VoidDesirer22]

take everything one day at a time. yes theres other methods but think long and hard. maybe you not being able to get it is a sign to keep going.

I think it's a sign that humanity has devised an almost fool proof strategy to trap everyone here so they have to pay taxes.

It's a bit circle-jerk of guiltripping

 

[PrisonBreak]

Should I just give up ctbing if I cannot get SN or N?

If you really need a way out, you will find it. One way or the other, you will find peace. Take your time, do research and think about what you need to do. Freedom will come for you at the right time. In the mean time, stay strong.

 

[Anonymous_A]

Agree with above. If you really need a way out, you'll find a way. All things considered, option when you've actually lost all hope..the way out rhymes with hope.

 

[headspin]

It's going to be scary no matter what. Maybe that's enough of a reason to keep trying to make life more tolerable.

Living is scary. It's a catch 22.

 

[its-about-time]

Living is scary. It's a catch 22.

Yeah I was feeling kinda optimistic earlier when I wrote that. I'll never encourage anyone to commit suicide even here. But I really fuckin get it, I'm over it too, it's gonna be shit either way so choose whatever I guess.

 

[qpsns]

SN is only $30. Can you really not afford that?

Its illegal in my country

 

[Capsicum_Corral]

Should I just give up ctbing if I cannot get SN or N?

Yes. Or at least re-examine your goals and purposes.

I'm perplexed by so many choosing poisoning as their method, when there are so many other ways that are more effective, and guaranteed to end in an instant and painless death. Below are a couple video sites that show both successes and failures.

https://www.documentingreality.com/forum/ (paid membership)

https://leakedreality.com/ (just restarted a couple weeks ago, so the huge backlog is gone, but have seen several examples of success in the past couple days.)

 

[M.i.245541]

I'm in the same situation. I can't get N and SN and many other methods. It makes things much worse knowing that you have no painless way out

 

[gracefulexit]

SN is only $30. Can you really not afford that?

Really?! Some people can't afford bread. Stfu

 

[SelfHatingAspie]

I am thinking about H2S gas, over 2000 people CTB by this method since 2007 and it has a %95 success rate. All you need is lime sulfur and acid. 120 mL of each chemical would produce 1000 ppm(lethal in minutes) in a 3,300 L cabin volume. Mixing 1 liters of each chemical in a confined space will result in certain death.

H2S was on my shortlist of methods when I first seriously contemplated ctb about 10 years ago. Whilst it's quick and effective, it's also reportedly very nasty. H2S gas smells terrible and the pain is said to be extreme (though I'm not sure how anyone could actually report on this given that death occurs so quickly). You also need to make any first responders aware of H2S gas i.e. put a sign on the front door of your room or inside the windows of your car, as they'll need to send a hazmat team to deal with your body. I'm not sure if that's how I really want to go, though I'd do it if no other quick and effective option was available.

Going back to the OP's dilemma. I don't know how expensive a bag of charcoal is where OP lives, but CO might be worth considering. That was the method I settled on, although (obviously) I didn't ctb 10 years ago. Not that I'm saying OP should use CO or any other specific method; rather this is just an idea as to something that they might want to research further.