Help Am I not in the real world? (Conversation with sister)

[strawberrygirl]

This is a conversation that sparked from a quote I posted "part of what makes suicide seems devastating for those left behind is that it is framed as a tragic, preventable loss rather than the lucky escape of a miserable person."

Sis: Everything ok?

Me: ok ok.. just thoughts

Sis: Sounds not so good
Sis: Don't think by yourself
Sis: Just share with people

Me: i stumbled upon antinatalism recently and i realised that my thoughts have aligned with it for a long time, thus the thoughts

Antinatalism - Wikipedia

en.m.wikipedia.org

Sis: I don't really understand
Sis: You just got to come back into the real world and stop living in your shell

Me: the real world is even worse..

Sis: How do you know
Sis: You have been in your own world for too long
Sis: Can't hide forever

Me: real world when I was at my old job? when i was in school, working at the cafe? i think my world feels realer now

Sis: What's your real world?
Sis: Every human has got issues
Sis: Challenges they meet in life
Sis: Just got work around it

Me: my real world is when I am not escaping into work or running away from home or family

Sis: You just got to learn to deal
Sis: Start planning what you want to do
Sis: You already did both

Me: yup not doing those now that's why i'm feeling that my world is realer

Sis: But what's next
Sis: Did you share with your boyfriend?
Sis: Since you talk to him most

Me: nope


Sis: Why don't you share with him and see what he thinks?

Me: i know he doesn't feel the same and it will become like an intellectual debate which will make me feel defeated and withdrawn so i'd rather not for the time being

Sis: But he's also in his own world

Me: it's a different world



Apparently.. I am not in the 'real world'..?

 

[WhyIsLife56]

I think what she means by "real world" is when you're like everyone else. She's expecting you to endure it.

 

[strawberrygirl]

I think what she means by "real world" is when you're like everyone else. She's expecting you to endure it.

In my eyes, she is always the perfect lady with the right things to say and receives love from everyone.

This place truly makes me feel less alone and less like a mad girl. Thank you @WhyIsLife56

 

[WhyIsLife56]

In my eyes, she is always the perfect lady with the right things to say and receives love from everyone.

This place truly makes me feel less alone and less like a mad girl. Thank you @WhyIsLife56 ❤

Same goes for my brother. He is the popular one although he still gets depressed from time to time.

I'm glad there's more antinatalists/efilists out there.