Venting Am I a bad person for wanting to kill myself?

[OperationOblivion]

All I do is hurt other people. I've recently told some of my very close friends and family that I'm suicidal and hurting myself. For a time I was better, but I want to die again and I feel even worse as a result. I want to die but I worry that it'll only hurt them even more. I don't know what'd be worse, me hurting them unconsciously while I'm alive, or making the choice to kill myself and ruin traumatize them.

 

[failedmind]

You're not a bad person, you're in pain. Your last sentence speaks to me a lot. I have been planning to CTB for over 10 years, but the guilt of hurting my family has held me back. But I also know staying alive as the depressed suicidal family member hurts them too. Its a battle. But no, you're not a bad person for wanting to kill yourself. You're hurting, and I'm sorry that you are

 

[OperationOblivion]

Since my initial post I've thought more about living vs dying and I'm leaning more and more towards death. Recently I was diagnosed with major depression and I'm completely drowning in school work. I can't motivate myself at all anymore and am just becoming useless to myself and the people around me. I've been considering trying the night night method but I'm still weighing my options.

 

[happyangel02121991]

there are people who find suicide selfish but I don't agree with them, and frankly the stigma makes one want to end their life even more. I think of it like any other illness, and in a way that there is a risk of death. For myself, I sometimes think I'm at like a terminal stage. I won't deny people who care will feel hurt, but I think the people who are helpful are the ones who can distinguish between you and your illness. For instance, if you were close with a cancer patient of course you will have concern.

You are not a bad person, just a sick one like us all here. Probably since I'm suicidal myself, I have a bias towards the idea ending one's life is within reason if you've reached like a certain stage.

 

[X-sanguinate86]

In a world like the one we are currently in you'd be a bad person for not wanting to.