Skywren

Skywren

mutilated heart
Jul 14, 2024
25
I'm having a lot of difficulty procuring sodium sodium nitrite. Ive been trying to find a peaceful way out (asyphixiation by nitric gas, sodium nitrite, or shut down of the nervous system by sodium pentobarbital), But I either can't find them anywhere, or if I do I need to commit fraud. Which due to my injuries and financial situation, is not possible as I really cant risk making my life worse

Death, in contrast to life, I would like to be non-violent and somewhat compassionate. but every day Im growing more and more frustrated/ desperate and im seriously thinking about buying a gallon of the highest concentration of bleach I can find and downing a bottle of tylanol. Or hell, even trying to homebrew my own SN

Are there any kinder alternatives? Im genuinely breaking down and im running out of options
 
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Skywren

Skywren

mutilated heart
Jul 14, 2024
25
You can give yourself an overdose of over-the-counter sleeping pills. . . you will just sleep and never wake up again
Ive tried that before, ended up waking up the next morning with nothing but a migraine. It was the entire bottle too
 
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Apr 4, 2024
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I feel you, it's shocking how difficult it is to get your hands on SN, which has a ton of non-suicide uses and is supposed to be the easy-to-access alternative to something like N. Still trying to figure out a source that will ship to the UK.
 
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Skywren

Skywren

mutilated heart
Jul 14, 2024
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I feel you, it's shocking how difficult it is to get your hands on SN, which has a ton of non-suicide uses and is supposed to be the easy-to-access alternative to something like N. Still trying to figure out a source that will ship to the UK.
From what Ive heard it used to be more common place. Its cruel that they'll restrict something like this without providing an alternative. Also there's an online shop called Biomall that's based in India that ships to different countries. Maybe you could try them?

They do require you to make an account with an official lab/ buisness address though, and while Im not smart enough to get around that, you could probably pose as something local and go for it that way
 
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timetodie24

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Apr 14, 2023
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You can give yourself an overdose of over-the-counter sleeping pills. . . you will just sleep and never wake up again
That's not true or ODs would have a much higher success rates. OTC sleeping pills tend to be antihistamines like diphenhydramine (at least in uk , idk other places) which is more likely to make you hallucinate and feel like shit than die. Yes it can kill you but vary rarely and in very high amounts. It's just like paracetamol , it can kill you but majority times fail. Some prescription sleeping pills would be more likely to work but still very low success rate . It's really not worth trying and making yourself ill and more miserable , then people possibly finding out too .
 
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