Alone

[Save_Me_Mind]

Typing this out before I forget it (like how I forget everything, ever since I tried CTB, my mind hasn't been the same).
I am alone, I've always been. Gosh I just wanna quit, but I can't, cause I have to pay off the "debt". I'm a loser and I don't know why. Is it my looks? Is my face scary? Is that why you all ghost me online and in person? What's wong with me? Humans are simply demons, talking behind your back and not telling you what others can see what's wrong with you that you can't view for yourself. So they'll never tell you, leaving you blind forever going insane. I can't fucking feel a thing as I've mentioned a while ago. I still love it. Yeah that's right, I still remember you, but I do not hate you, I only wish to understand what was wrong of me. I know I'm crazy, but that's what society depicts me as, only because I've been left in the dark my entire life. How cruel. I have anhedonia, I can't feel anything. I just want friends, fuck, not even. Just one person who wants me as a person, all the qualities I have for others always checking up on them and being kind. fuck... is there anyone out there?.... I'm just sick of the lies.
Apologies for this long ass rant, have a good day everyone.

 

[inaminute]

Yeah people will only find use for us until we stop giving.

My days are numbered. My wife and kids leave in 3 days time for a long weekend. It might be the longest in history of long weekends

I hear you by the way

 

[MrFreshTheCat]

Im sorry for how you feel, if it gives you comfort and ironically makes you feel less alone there is a lot of people like us out there, i have been so alone my entire life without knowing why, and also the fake support from my family just to hear them talk shit about me as soon as i leave the room, i feel so alone and it seems so hard to meet anyone even online, im so tired of it all and at the end everyone just ends up ghosting me idk know what to do about it anymore, wish you the best

 

[Save_Me_Mind]

Yeah people will only find use for us until we stop giving.

My days are numbered. My wife and kids leave in 3 days time for a long weekend. It might be the longest in history of long weekends

I hear you by the way

Im sorry for how you feel, if it gives you comfort and ironically makes you feel less alone there is a lot of people like us out there, i have been so alone my entire life without knowing why, and also the fake support from my family just to hear them talk shit about me as soon as i leave the room, i feel so alone and it seems so hard to meet anyone even online, im so tired of it all and at the end everyone just ends up ghosting me idk know what to do about it anymore, wish you the best

Thank you, I appreciate it.

 

[xmissellax]

I'm sorry life has been so difficult. You deserve peace.