vanillamilkshakes
Aspiring Corpse
- Aug 26, 2024
- 277
I have never been someone's first choice, even second. All through my life, I've seen people with their person. Even when I had friends, I knew I was the backup, and it was honestly devastating. Knowing you're not important enough to be someone's closest friend, knowing that you are just a "convenience" to them, to have when someone closer to them isn't there. I've been a lonely person for a long time, I tried to convince myself that I liked it that way. But I don't, knowing I'll never have that male best friend experience because I'm a gay male (and apparently if you are gay It means you're going to do every guy you see) I am tired of being lonely, I'm tired of being forgotten. I desperately hope reincarnation is real, I want a second chance where I'm a "normal" person. I know that this is my reality, this is who I am. I just wish everything was different, I wish things didn't have to be this way.
(I know this makes me sound ungrateful, I'm sorry.)
(I know this makes me sound ungrateful, I'm sorry.)