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lostmyonlylove
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- Aug 17, 2022
- 21
I almost CTB with partial hanging tonight. It took me a little bit, but I found the sweet spot. I was so close to giving into the light feeling (after about 3 to 5 seconds) and riding it out, but I stopped after I thought, "am I ready to do this?" It's frustrating to constantly straddle the fence between being ready to make a final exit and waiting a little longer. Life has been kicking me down lately, and I'm done with trying anymore. I'm just so drained from trying to turn things around. I hope I get another depressingly strong reminder of why I decided to leave…