Isittimetogonola
Kindness is a weakness to be taken advantage by al
- Oct 22, 2019
- 198
My very best friend in the world was have a huge fight with her wife as they are in the process of getting divorced. Her soon to be ex is narcissistic, manipulative and likes to demoralize my friend. The ex also has the gift of appearing not crazy. After 20 yrs of marriage to a beautiful woman, I realize that I am bisexual and more on the gay side The ex has outed me to her neighbor so she will probably out me to anyone who will listen. My friend had her gun on the counter and I picked it up. As I was standing there, I thought I could CTB whilst blaming her and hopefully destroying what sanity the demon had. I figured my friend would get over it and she would be free of this monster and me as I feel I am just a burden to her. Another friend was texting because of the fight. I had my hand on the trigger, found the spot on my chest. I stupidly told the texting friend that I could end all this drama by entertaining my dark side. She talked me down. Disappointed in myself that I couldn't do it and that it truly would also destroy my friend. That is the absolute closest I have ever been. It isn't my first choice of methods as I already have one in place. Just venting my failure.
