mordumfan
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- Aug 12, 2025
- 19
Basically I have a casual job, I work at a pub where I make side dishes, do the dishes, clean, serve food and all of that stuff. Yesterday we were severely understaffed so my boss was pissed. My boss yelled at me because I didn't understand what she meant when she told me to do something.. and I could feel myself tearing up, this always happens. As soon as someone raises their voice I immediately go into panic mode, I think it's because when I was a lot younger, my dad would scream back and fourth to my grandma and auntie, then at me. I really think there's something wrong with me.
Last week, I failed to CTB AGAIN!! after two weeks, and it was because I didn't want to walk to the forest, its such a pathetic reason it just makes me want to ctb even more... It's like life has its ways of preventing me from succeeding. I just wish I could go back to when I was younger, playing on the xbox 360 with my brother. Back then I didn't have to worry about anything, not my looks, not my health, not anything at all. I'm hoping I'll be able to go through with it this weekend, Maybe I'll take a nap before I do it to prevent sleepiness. but somehow I always end up losing.
Last week, I failed to CTB AGAIN!! after two weeks, and it was because I didn't want to walk to the forest, its such a pathetic reason it just makes me want to ctb even more... It's like life has its ways of preventing me from succeeding. I just wish I could go back to when I was younger, playing on the xbox 360 with my brother. Back then I didn't have to worry about anything, not my looks, not my health, not anything at all. I'm hoping I'll be able to go through with it this weekend, Maybe I'll take a nap before I do it to prevent sleepiness. but somehow I always end up losing.
