All of the f*cking pain…

[emgrl]

I seriously don't know what to do anymore… I try so hard to accept post-traumatic life… but, it just doesn't seem worth it to me. No one seems to understand, and I would never want them to. This pain and anguish is all too real. I tried to stop coming on here for a few days, only to find myself calling crisis help lines to have someone to talk to, that would just listen to me, and let me cry my eyes out. My eyes are so swollen, and I feel so exhausted, yet I still can't manage to get any good sleep. My outward appearance is so homely and disgusting right now, and that's only a fraction of how I'm feeling on the inside. I need serious help, I'm so tempted to end it all… everyday I feel closer and closer… and I'm about to break.

 

[R. A.]

I feel like I just replied to your recovery post; sorry to see you back in the dark zone so soon...

 

[Jimblue]

I can understand you. I tried really hard to recover.. but it's so hard. Today I just had flash back the first whole day and feeling really depressed. Really wish I can die in a car accident or something similar. I even don't have energy to plan CTB at movement.

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be so tiring what you are going through, living really can be painful if someone is trapped in a life that is just endless suffering with no real relief. I'm sorry that you have to endure this.

 

[jodes2]

Sorry you're going through this

 

[LaVieEnRose]

People tend to underestimate PTSD. They think it's just a question of *getting over it" and "letting go". But it's not.

I can understand because I don't feel like dealing with my trauma anymore.

It's okay if you have been crying. It doesn't reflect on you even if you're looking messy from it.

 

[emgrl]

People tend to underestimate PTSD. They think it's just a question of *getting over it" and "letting go". But it's not.

I can understand because I don't feel like dealing with my trauma anymore.

It's okay if you have been crying. It doesn't reflect on you even if you're looking messy from it.

Thanks for your kind words. I'm so sorry you get how I feel. This isn't a way to live

 

[Sad_Sack]

I'm sorry you are feeling badly. I hope you can find sustained relief.

 

[emgrl]

I'm sorry you are feeling badly. I hope you can find sustained relief.

Thank you, I hope we all can