RussianRoulette

RussianRoulette

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Today I just made 26 years, I didn't celebrate my birthday , rather I mourned it because I realized my current state of living, despite having a master and already on second and working as a teacher with a full career ahead I don't have any hope in life. Due to my past trauma and depression , I have found a solace into watching adult content, due to constant dopamine hits to numb the pain, and recently ,and I say recently because I started at 23 , I got into alcohol , since I desired to try a drug which would replace adult content, having invested a good amount of time into this stuff. I was pretty shut in as a kid and going to the gym for 6 years doesn't help either, I'm in relatively good shape with a decent diet, but my alcohol took a deep toll into my health , and I tried nofap regarding my porn addiction but every time I dived into deeper and weirder content, recently having met some really fucked up individuals which willingly dragged me down even further into the depth of my mental illness, deepening myself into anxiety . My therapist didn't help me at all, I really feel the need to tell this to someone who basically shares my problems. I had suicidal thoughts for 4 years now but in the last one it really intesified with my alcoholism , I never had a partner nor much friends to do things with so I always find myself just binging on booze. I feel like a monster and I think the only way out is to end it all .


Any thoughts on this ? Or similar experiences ?
 
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cryone

cryone

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hmm…im guessing binging on alcohol is arguably the more dangerous addiction of the two. id say try to get rid of alcohol in your home or atleast put it in a place that isnt easy to reach.

I understand that you're heading down a more dangerous path of porn, but overall I think you shouldn't be terribly ashamed. it is quite a normal thing. Try to prevent going further down the rabbit hole by just watching mainstream porn. after masturbating you'll probably feel better + forget about it.

fyi these are just my thoughts. I dont know if they will actually help. hope everything works out well with you.
 
shantyizlit

shantyizlit

Really, what was the point?
Jul 7, 2023
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Today I just made 26 years, I didn't celebrate my birthday , rather I mourned it because I realized my current state of living, despite having a master and already on second and working as a teacher with a full career ahead I don't have any hope in life. Due to my past trauma and depression , I have found a solace into watching adult content, due to constant dopamine hits to numb the pain, and recently ,and I say recently because I started at 23 , I got into alcohol , since I desired to try a drug which would replace adult content, having invested a good amount of time into this stuff. I was pretty shut in as a kid and going to the gym for 6 years doesn't help either, I'm in relatively good shape with a decent diet, but my alcohol took a deep toll into my health , and I tried nofap regarding my porn addiction but every time I dived into deeper and weirder content, recently having met some really fucked up individuals which willingly dragged me down even further into the depth of my mental illness, deepening myself into anxiety . My therapist didn't help me at all, I really feel the need to tell this to someone who basically shares my problems. I had suicidal thoughts for 4 years now but in the last one it really intesified with my alcoholism , I never had a partner nor much friends to do things with so I always find myself just binging on booze. I feel like a monster and I think the only way out is to end it all .


Any thoughts on this ? Or similar experiences ?
lol just swap it with dabs, stupid. i got the same issue but with weed, but it ain't shitting on my body at all lol.. plus i do a lot of meditation and breathwork so smoking a doobie is those 2 things in one while i enjoy myself lol... im just fucked cuz i don't have enough money to just sit there and smoke ALL DAY XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDdddddddddddddddddd ;-;
hmm…im guessing binging on alcohol is arguably the more dangerous addiction of the two. id say try to get rid of alcohol in your home or atleast put it in a place that isnt easy to reach.

I understand that you're heading down a more dangerous path of porn, but overall I think you shouldn't be terribly ashamed. it is quite a normal thing. Try to prevent going further down the rabbit hole by just watching mainstream porn. after masturbating you'll probably feel better + forget about it.

fyi these are just my thoughts. I dont know if they will actually help. hope everything works out well with you.
mainstream porn.
shut the FUCK UP!!!!!!!!!!!! that shit is was and will always be the problem; it's the reason we're addicted in the first place. Shit wasn't this bad before playboy.
Try masturbating to pictures only r/gonewild is fucking lit.
 
UnwillingSavior

UnwillingSavior

Mr. Self Destruct
Nov 2, 2023
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I'm sorry to say but I can't give much advice, as unfortunately, I also suffer from a porn addiction and it's always been an issue for me ever since I was 8. Whenever I try to quit I lose all motivation in the days, weeks, or months after. Just know I admire your courage to call yourself out like that. Porn addiction is no joke, I think it's been the biggest downfall of my entire life. But I agree with the other person here to tackle your alcoholism first. It's more dangerous and I doubt you'll be able to get rid of your other addiction if you're suffering from the alcoholism. Good luck for whatever you choose, hopefully things will become more clear for you.
 
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RussianRoulette

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it's pretty blind on my side to not tell the truth. I'm trying to fight my degeneracy by hiding the alcohol whenever I can or go for runs whenever I feel like drinking
 
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lol just swap it with dabs, stupid. i got the same issue but with weed, but it ain't shitting on my body at all lol.. plus i do a lot of meditation and breathwork so smoking a doobie is those 2 things in one while i enjoy myself lol... im just fucked cuz i don't have enough money to just sit there and smoke ALL DAY XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDdddddddddddddddddd ;-;


shut the FUCK UP!!!!!!!!!!!! that shit is was and will always be the problem; it's the reason we're addicted in the first place. Shit wasn't this bad before playboy.
Try masturbating to pictures only r/gonewild is fucking lit.
you sound rather harsh , but I agree, porn addiction can really fuck you up
 
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tabletop

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shut the FUCK UP!!!!!!!!!!!
You sir deserve no respect whatsoever nor should anything you ever say be taken seriously. Telling people to shut up and cussing at them cause they politely said something you disagree with? What is wrong with you?

It is still strongly documented that there is no evil porn addiction causes depression. It's much more likely that those with depression or other issues are more likely to develop a porn addiction. In which case there is really nothing wrong with that.

It ain't nothing but a vintage Christian mindset trying to tell people is wrong to look at porn and masturbate.
 
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Celerity

Celerity

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So, I recently browsed listings in my area for sex therapists. I was looking for help building confidence and such, but quite a few mentioned training in dealing with sex and/or porn addiction. Do you see someone for that, or just your garden variety mental health therapist?

I don't watch porn, but I do drink far too much and read erotica on a nearly daily basis. Neither habit is healthy, and I also don't feel like I can stop.
 
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RussianRoulette

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So, I recently browsed listings in my area for sex therapists. I was looking for help building confidence and such, but quite a few mentioned training in dealing with sex and/or porn addiction. Do you see someone for that, or just your garden variety mental health therapist?

I don't watch porn, but I do drink far too much and read erotica on a nearly daily basis. Neither habit is healthy, and I also don't feel like I can stop.
No I do not, but I will ask for help regarding this, I will try something as fast as possible as otherwise I'm doomed to suffer in silence.
 
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Celerity

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No I do not, but I will ask for help regarding this, I will try something as fast as possible as otherwise I'm doomed to suffer in silence.
Good luck. I wish the best for you. It's really a terrible thing to struggle with. People often downplay how harmful it can be.
 
shantyizlit

shantyizlit

Really, what was the point?
Jul 7, 2023
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You sir deserve no respect whatsoever nor should anything you ever say be taken seriously. Telling people to shut up and cussing at them cause they politely said something you disagree with? What is wrong with you?

It is still strongly documented that there is no evil porn addiction causes depression. It's much more likely that those with depression or other issues are more likely to develop a porn addiction. In which case there is really nothing wrong with that.

It ain't nothing but a vintage Christian mindset trying to tell people is wrong to look at porn and masturbate.
yes you keep telling yourself that.. refer to my pfp xDD
 
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OP = askng fr gnuine advse on a sers mattr s/ civilty & mturity wld b apprci8td
 
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