Alcohol is the only thing keeping me from CTB.

[blitz]

I've had my SN for a good few months now but haven't been able to CTB because of my drinking.
I've managed to hide SN from my ex and the police on two occasions (IC raids). I really dont want to throw up and fail so I'm trying to stay sober so everything goes smoothly yet everyday I drink and I'm still here.
I wake up knowing in 24 hours I could be gone and finally be at peace if I stay sober and fast but i always turn to the bottle.
I guess I'm just killing myslef in another way just really fucking slowly.

 

[thornyrose]

I don't know what to say but I'm sending you some love anyway.

 

[90starve]

alcoholism is such a misunderstood disease and so hard to overcome - wishing you peace and freedom <3

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Alcohol is the only thing keeping me from CTB

Which is kinda ironic, really, since alcohol is a depressant.