after dying

[Wyldfyre4948]

I keep coming back to the thought of what happens after you die. Despite having beliefs in an afterlife there is still the fear of the unknown. Sadly its not something I'll actually know until it happens. The thought of my disembodied spirit lingering on earth for a few minutes and maybe getting to bid farewell before departing is one of my favorites. Maybe Death will be there waiting to collect me and guide me to my next destination. Or a short trip to the movies where I get to rewatch my life before moving on.

Even the thought of reincarnation doesn't make sense because you don't remember your previous life. So that makes me wonder if it still is "you" because you aren't the same. I do believe that death is just the end of life and we transcend to something else after shedding our corporeal forms. Spirits have been encountered and documented for quite some time. That gives me hope that maybe I can visit some afterwards.

Honestly I'd like to be able to have Sunday dinner with my grandparents again. It would also be nice to not be here anymore. Life is a drag filled with pain and misery. For now I'll continue to make my preparations to ctb and hold the door open for my wife. There will come a day when I close that door and lock it so I can free myself of this flesh construct that ties me to time and space. All my obligations will be fulfilled and I will have some goodies for my family if they want something to hang on to me with. I'm sentimental so I hang on to certain objects. When my grandfather passed I was given his favorite soup bowl, and when my grandmother passed I got her pillow. Not to mention I have their plates and silverware that they used for at least a decade. So I look forward to having homemade chicken soup with them again.

 

[brainwormz]

Everyone I know who has died says there isn't an afterlife but who knows. There's no evidence anywhere of an afterlife. Personally I don't believe it's real. But I've never died before so I can't say. I think the fact that anesthesia works shows that our brain is the seat of consciousness and once that stops functioning we stop existing. But then again we can't explain the original of existence so maybe we are plugged into the matrix.

 

[FuneralCry]

I personally believe and hope we completely cease existing after this but anyway I hope that you eventually find what you search for, it's really understandable just wishing to be free from all the suffering that existing brings.