Afraid to feel joy

[Pistolero114]

Is there anyone else who has days so really decent and normal that catching the bus seems very far away? I'm feeling terrified because I know if I allow myself to have one moment of just pure feeling well I'll have to deal with the huge emotional crash that inevitably comes? Thoughts?

 

[Voy]

I used to avoid good feelings too. But after realizing I can't ctb soon enough and I'll have to live with this pain for much longer, it doesn't matter how much it will feel painful anymore. I try to accept and appreciate the smallest of what life has to offer, just so I can have few moments of peace.

 

[Kyrok]

If you're lucky enough to have some joy in your life, for fucks sake, take it.

If you're afraid of the "crash," don't be. Just accept that the joy isn't anything more than temporary. But that's no excuse for not having some joy if it happens to come around.

 

[Empty Smile]

What goes up, must come down. Same as our feelings.