Afraid of the karma and reincarnation after I ctb

[hopesickndopeless]

Good morning everyone, I've attempted to ctb at least 7 times in the last year always trying to od using the good stuff but due to tolerance to no avail. I've decided I'm going to go with the co method using either a camp stove or charcoal and do enough of the other that I just fall asleep peacefully. My biggest fear is that I'll reincarnate as a vegetable or someone with some serious mental issues. Does anyone else fear the trap of this realm where it seems we constantly have to be born again and do it over. I also hate thinking about leaving my dog behind. It crushes my soul. But I have no other true options. I'm completely alone and have been through so much that I can't fathom staying here much longer. It's just one blow after another. No family no kids nothing that's truly worth sticking around. I just want to escape and be at peace. Too much pain and suffering in the last 25 years of living. Im truly a tortured soul.

 

[SoftWorries]

While I do believe in reincarnation I don't believe in the concept of a single spirit. In my opinion source energy (the spirit in all living things) returns to a pool of source energy.

Have you considered trying acid or MDMA to explore your believes about the afterlife in a more tangible way?

 

[LittleJem]

IKR. I also worry about reincarnation to a worse life of suffering. I guess the advantage is we won't remember this one.

I don't see it as punishment. When I have believed in reincarnation/on lsd I think we are all just playing every character in different lives - both suffering and happy.

But I hope there is sweet fa

 

[hopesickndopeless]

While I do believe in reincarnation I don't believe in the concept of a single spirit. In my opinion source energy (the spirit in all living things) returns to a pool of source energy.

Have you considered trying acid or MDMA to explore your believes about the afterlife in a more tangible way?

Way ahead of you. Been doing lsd and mushrooms since I was 16, im 26 now. Have had ego deaths and kudalini s experiences several times. Become one with everything went to a higher place where I was no longer "me" and was my higher self. Have done dmt probably 50 times or more. I've always believed there are several versions of us as one like some share the same soul while the brain is individual and ego is as well but the soul running it is all connected. To hurt you is to hurt me kinda thing. Like we are all living simultaneously together time is an illusion and we all live a different life and different experience but are all connected in one way or another. Lately I've been almost convinced there's npcs and people who don't have a soul . And that there jsut background characters and don't really "live" I always joke and say I must of been an absolute terrible person in my last life from everything that happens to me for no giving reason.

 

[SoftWorries]

Way ahead of you. Been doing lsd and mushrooms since I was 16, im 26 now. Have had ego deaths and kudalini s experiences several times. Become one with everything went to a higher place where I was no longer "me" and was my higher self . Have done dmt probably 50 times or more. I've always believed there are several versions of us as one like some share the same soul while the brain is individual and ego is as well but the soul running it is all connected. To hurt you is to hurt me kinda thing. Like we are all living simultaneously together time is an illusion and we all live a different life and different experience but are all connected in one way or another. Lately I've been almost convinced there's npcs and people who don't have a soul . And that there jsut background characters and don't really "live" I always joke and say I must of been an absolute terrible person in my last life from everything that happens to me for no giving reason.

That's very interesting. My psychedelic experiences has lead me not to believe in karma.

I think it's interesting the conclusions people make from their experiences on psychedelics and how ours have been vastly different.

On my latest trip I viewed spiritual energy/life energy as a flower shape with our lives being the seeds. I found it to be a pretty image. Cosmic flower life seeds