Help Advice please- GHB

[bananacrackers]

Please help. I know the rules are not to share specific sources, so I am asking for whatever advice is allowed to be given.

I can't keep doing this. I'm so exhausted, I'm so DONE, I just want a peaceful end. I contacted D from the PPH about N but he said he has no product. Then I started looking into other methods and decided on GHB but I don't know how/where to buy it. I have never bought or used illegal drugs before. I grew up very sheltered in a cult-like community and then entered very young into what became an abusive marriage. Over time my husband has been successful at isolating me to the point that now I don't have any personal friends or contacts that I can ask to point me in the direction of someone who sells drugs in the area I live in. I saw on this site the recommendation to download the darknet bible for instructions on how to buy stuff online, and I did, but I still can't figure out how to tell if the sites that purport to sell are real or scams. I am aware of how naive I am, I feel like an idiot because I have no idea how to navigate this and I'm so fucking angry that I have to learn how to do something criminal just to end my own life- it's MY life. I don't want to hurt anyone else. I don't know if trying to buy online vs in person is more likely to get me caught/prosecuted. I am in the US. If anyone has advice I would appreciate it.

 

[juraviel]

you can access dn markets via the tor browser (ideally you would do this within a virtual machine, tad bit complicated i know, but good for added anonymity). look through the largest ones, buy locally from a vendor with a lot of positive (recent) reviews, same as you would do buying on ebay. that's probably your best shot. you can also look for opinions on dread (a darknet discussion place).

 

[picklemick]

I had never though about GHB as a method to CTB but I've used it before. Ketamine and GHB sounds like a lovely way to go. Just not sure effectiveness. Definitly will research now, thanks for the tip. best of luck

 

[bananacrackers]

you can access dn markets via the tor browser (ideally you would do this within a virtual machine, tad bit complicated i know, but good for added anonymity). look through the largest ones, buy locally from a vendor with a lot of positive (recent) reviews, same as you would do buying on ebay. that's probably your best shot. you can also look for opinions on dread (a darknet discussion place).

Thank you

 

[come to dust]

You browse dark net forums and reviews on dark net store websites to determine whether a seller is legit.

 

[picklemick]

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