Kvotheloner

Kvotheloner

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Hi all, I stumbled on this site recently but have had LAH and PPH bookmarked for years.
I'm a 31 year old Army vet looking to ctb in the next few months. I have felt like I dont belong in this world since I can remember as a kid so it's not a ptsd thing. I actually despise government and authority in general but it allowed me to travel and get away from bad things and probably prolonged my life.

I was wondering if anyone has had experiences with large doses of F and Ox/XNX all mixed together. I know the crypto DNMs and this seems like the most plausible method. I have taken xnx only years ago and have no tolerances built up. N was my number one choice but the listings dont look so legit atm.
Any help is greatly appreciated and I have really cherished reading all the great posts on here, it's nice to not feel completely alone when you feel it to the bone.
 
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Rez_MbChB

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would you recommend joining the army to someone who is considering it?

With OD's they're not very reliable or painless. Some people can take a shit ton and go into arrest then wake up miraculously and others die after taking a little bit. I would recommend mixing the euphoric properties of F with a lethal drug like SN.
 
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Kvotheloner

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Absolutely. It takes some thick skin if your not a natural asshole, and I'm not. I was a company sniper in an infantry battalion. Thankfully never had to pull the trigger on anyone. Lost a few friends though.
But the college money is great, I traveled all over the world going to school online. And there are lots of perks. My advice to everyone that asks is do your 3-5 years and get out and do you. Some people are made for it though.

That's what I was worried about, trying to measure out an ld50. I will probably end up doing a huge cocktail of things to be sure. I've tried suspension hanging and I feel like a push for not being able to go through with it. Cant get myself to pass out.
 
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transgenderfailure

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I have a large dose of F but I have the same concerns. There's like almost no documentation about ctbing on it. I can't find a lot about it like with N. It's all so vague and unconvincing..

Do you know about A? He sells N right. Why do the listings not look legit?
 
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A is back i hear
 
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Hi all, I stumbled on this site recently but have had LAH and PPH bookmarked for years.
I'm a 31 year old Army vet looking to ctb in the next few months. I have felt like I dont belong in this world since I can remember as a kid so it's not a ptsd thing. I actually despise government and authority in general but it allowed me to travel and get away from bad things and probably prolonged my life.

I was wondering if anyone has had experiences with large doses of F and Ox/XNX all mixed together. I know the crypto DNMs and this seems like the most plausible method. I have taken xnx only years ago and have no tolerances built up. N was my number one choice but the listings dont look so legit atm.
Any help is greatly appreciated and I have really cherished reading all the great posts on here, it's nice to not feel completely alone when you feel it to the bone.

The best way to ctb I think is to use fentanyl patches. Just put them on your body, sit down in the sofa, open a beer and place your feet on the table. You'll fall asleep and sleep forever!

The only problem is that these patches are extremely hard to get, at least in Europe where I live. But maybe it's easier in USA? You live in USA, right?

I personally have no doubt: Fentanyl patches are the best way to go! I wish I had some lying around. I would kill myself right now without any hesitation!

Read this article:


As an pharmacist he had both expertise and access to all kinds of drugs and he chose fentanyl patches. That's all I need to know.

In the article they write: "Instead, she found him dead in bed, with six high-dosage fentanyl patches on his neck and chest and an open can of beer nearby."

My friend, if I only had 6 high dosage fentanyl patches with me right now I would be very happy!
 
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I have a large dose of F but I have the same concerns. There's like almost no documentation about ctbing on it. I can't find a lot about it like with N. It's all so vague and unconvincing..

Do you know about A? He sells N right. Why do the listings not look legit?


I've seen people mention A but I'm not sure what source it is. Is it from the live pph? I only have the 2016 version
 
Etherealdignity333

Etherealdignity333

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Jul 21, 2019
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would you recommend joining the army to someone who is considering it?

With OD's they're not very reliable or painless. Some people can take a shit ton and go into arrest then wake up miraculously and others die after taking a little bit. I would recommend mixing the euphoric properties of F with a lethal drug like SN.
This is exactly what I was thinking of doing. Do you think it would be reliable, or would there be some bizarre contraindication that causes the whole thing to fail?

I would think it would be more on the side of overkill, which is fine, but I can't be sure.
A is back i hear
He's responding super sporadically, if at all, and now doing weird things like asking people for their phone numbers, sooooo...

Hope it's still A?
 
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Rez_MbChB

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May 21, 2019
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This is exactly what I was thinking of doing. Do you think it would be reliable, or would there be some bizarre contraindication that causes the whole thing to fail?

I would think it would be more on the side of overkill, which is fine, but I can't be sure.

He's responding super sporadically, if at all, and now doing weird things like asking people for their phone numbers, sooooo...

Hope it's still A?

heres what I would do, meto 45min before stat dose, 15g dissolved sn drink it, then shoot up with fentanyl (youll most likely pass out right away). I plan on a different method but only because have access to some juicy drugs.
 
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Jul 21, 2019
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heres what I would do, meto 45min before stat dose, 15g dissolved sn drink it, then shoot up with fentanyl (youll most likely pass out right away). I plan on a different method but only because have access to some juicy drugs.
This is kinda what I'm thinking. With the benzos ahead of time, I'm hoping to Macgyver the N experience.
 
Kvotheloner

Kvotheloner

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Im probably going to try this with a lethal dose of phenobarbital. Was able to find something that looks pretty reliable. Also a heavy dose of benzos and F. Finally doing the shopping
 
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