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m7374838
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- Jul 9, 2024
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i'm planning to ctb around october, but i still haven't decided on a method yet. i don't have a lot of methods available - the only one i'm considering seriously is some sort of hanging, but i don't have a good place to do it. i live with my mom who doesn't leave the house often, sleeps at irregular times, and checks my room every couple hours. i don't wanna be saved and then have to live with brain damage or go into a coma. i've thought about finding somewhere in the woodlands or something but i don't really have anywhere near me, and i wouldn't wanna have to make someone come across my body… is there anything i can do about it?
also, i'm not really sure what i should be preparing before i ctb. i don't know how to write a note without it sounding too self pitying, plus i'd need to write it in chinese for my mom, which i can barely understand. aside from that, what else should i prepare? it's not like i have anything i would need to leave in a will, but is there any way i can make it easier to clean up my body or at least make it less traumatising to see? i want to make it as easy as possible for my family when i ctb.
sorry if there's already some threads about the stuff i've asked or if i did anything wrong, i'm still kinda struggling with navigating the site.
also, i'm not really sure what i should be preparing before i ctb. i don't know how to write a note without it sounding too self pitying, plus i'd need to write it in chinese for my mom, which i can barely understand. aside from that, what else should i prepare? it's not like i have anything i would need to leave in a will, but is there any way i can make it easier to clean up my body or at least make it less traumatising to see? i want to make it as easy as possible for my family when i ctb.
sorry if there's already some threads about the stuff i've asked or if i did anything wrong, i'm still kinda struggling with navigating the site.