addiction

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Is anyone else suicidal because of addiction, to anything? Sorry if this been asked before, my search engine is down

 

[GoneGoneGone]

I'm addicted to benzos because my panic disorder does not respond to SSRIs due to serotonin syndrome.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Well I have been suicidal since my late 13´s/ early 14 but in the last months I have become addicted to benzodiazepines (physically) and alcohol mentally since I use it not everyday "only" several times a week

So I guess this wasn´t the answer you wanted if anything I use benzos for anxiety and alcohol to decrease my anger and suicidal thoughts I am also a philosopher so I think all the time so the thoughts become too much sometimes and alcohol supresses them mainly the existential nihilism

 

[lemohemo]

Yes! I have quite a bad marajuana dependency

Im in a catch 22 with my services about it.
I went through major trauma i cant go to supermarkets or even for walks in nature without having panic attacks or ive no ability to be around people for socialising.
its been 4 years living like this.

my mental health services wont offer me help just telling me to waddle off to rehab because when they drug test me marajuana comes up (this only started with my new consultant, its good just a bit but wont waste any services on drug addicts, i was with psychology before under the DR before him but removed me)

Ive made it clear i would totally go to rehab found a public centre with animals that would suit me. However I wont go becauses theres nothing for me in the world to get better. I cant study what ive been interested in childhood due to trauma. Nothing for 4 years had capitvated me or held or bearly drawn my interest.
You know how it is when youve choosen suicide

Its why ive wanted to work with someone to talk through this issues and see if i can gain some peace to want to move forward to want to get better, to find another life waiting out there for me. But they wont give me any services until i complete a rehab programme and theres nothing in the world waiting for me when i leave rehab

 

[Curiositykillskitty]

I'm addicted to anything that takes the pain of life away..... booze, drugs, pain. I see my use of drugs and booze as self harm.

 

[Khyber]

Yes and no. I've been a compulsive gambler for many years although I haven't placed any type of bet in over a year now. The gambling definitely contributed to my suicidal thoughts although at the same time it was an escape from my life (same as any addiction I guess).

I wasn't suicidal because of my addiction but it didn't help. I'm kind of worried now about developing an alcohol problem, particularly the longer lockdown continues. Again the alcohol isn't the actual problem per se but a combination of everything else.

 

[Fragile]

not my main reasons, but it really sucks to have to live with this.

i started drinking some years ago, then it became a daily method of coping. after some time i was prescribed benzos to cut the drinking and help with the anxiety, and when it became a problem i was prescribed pregabalin... needless to say, i've been addicted to it for couple of years.

those are not the only substances that i've been addicted to, i've used many others. these are just the ones that i'm currently struggling with.

i know i should find better coping mechanisms. but i can't see myself going through a detox again, and it would't be worth it anyway. i doubt that i'll be living for another year if things continue to be the way they are.

 

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Pregabalin is what got me too, I had no idea how addictive it was it how dependant my body would become on it. A Doctor gave it to me. I had to come off it but since then I have replaced it with benzos and strong painkillers.

I was suicidal before this so it hasn't helped at all obviously. I knew I was addictive by nature so was always careful with drugs. Not anymore. My body is a wreck and I don't see the point in getting help now