Venting Actually wishing to live in this world filled with endless suffering will always be delusional to me

[FuneralCry]

It's undeniable that existence will always be something so hellish, futile and cruel so of course any beliefs valuing this and seeing existence as being positive would always be centred around delusions.

Wishing to live is of course something that would be very absurd as existence is objectively something so terrible, it's such a terrible burden having the ability to suffer endlessly in this harmful world, it's delusional to want to live where there is unlimited potential for torture all while chance so senselessly determines everything.

Existence is just an tragic and meaningless cycle of cruelty and suffering that continues to repeat, there's no peace and relief from harm all while one slowly decays from age, destined for nothing but to be tormented by very old age, existing is only suffering and that's all it will ever be.

Existence is a curse and to desire this would of course be delusional as it means being blind to the hellish nature of existence, it's not positive that anyone had to suffer, in fact to me it will always unacceptable, it disgusts me how existence has caused so much agony to be experienced all throughout history, existence is so evil as it's the source of all suffering and harm.

And I just hate how as a result of these insensitive and absurd delusions about existence, humans are denied a guaranteed way to free themselves from this existence in peace. It's inhumane how we cannot just choose to fall asleep eternally despite the fact that wishing to die is just being aware, it's always valid wanting to sleep eternally.

 

[monday?]

And the saddest part about all of this is that people who manage to see beyond the delusion will always be a small minority. Most of them will find a way out and those who don't aren't going to make a difference. Humans will just keep reproducing and bringing in more souls into this cruel cycle and the ones who wake up will find themselves alone in a world that will try to break their legs at every step towards freeing themselves from this prison. It's sad that the few people who will understand their condition will have to face the struggle for freedom on their own. It's just how the world works and nothing can ever change that.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

If you got more interaction outside of this site you would see that not everyone's lives is endless torment. Having this forum be your standard for judging human lives is very perspective-warping. Notwithstanding the fact that many of us bent on CTB still harbor a desire to live...

 

[cscott]

If you got more interaction outside of this site you would see that not everyone's lives is endless torment. Having this forum be your standard for judging human lives is very perspective-warping. Notwithstanding the fact that many of us bent on CTB still harbor a desire to live...

Not true. I've had enough interaction off this site to see & agree with exactly what she's saying…

With a DEEP level of awareness you see the meaningless point of exsistence. It's a repetitive cycle that we exist in and 9 times out of 10 it results in all of us decaying and certainly suffering because of attachment, loses, pain.. you name it.. so to wish for that to completely cease and return to the place before creation or (consciousness) is to return to the nothingness -oblivion of peace.

And she rightly makes sense even without having time of this site. Anyone with the wool pulled from their eyes can see this ..to want to live this life is delusional because it's a series of illusions. In a way you are wanting to stay somewhere waiting for a never ending inevitable outcome. We are animals basically stuck in survival. You gotta survive everyday, eat to survive, work(slave) to survive.. survival is the lowest form of creation.. that's basically what animals do everyday, we're just smarter ones if you will..

It's delusional to want to stay in basically HELL cause that's what this place is even with the lil beauty you might experince. This place is nothing but pure suffering. Mind, body, soul.. with even all of its distraction, gadgets & substances that delude us into thinking it's a life worth living.

This life ain't shit