bluefeather177
drowsy in a dark room
- Mar 2, 2023
- 32
I went rock climbing with my brother and was really reluctant to go. He basically had to drag me out of the house. I haven't been exercising and am in poor shape as well as being overweight, all of which make rock climbing more difficult, so I didn't think I was going to like it at all.
But I did, and I managed to climb harder problems than I thought. I wasn't frustrated at how little I was able to do like I have been in the past, but I was actually enjoying it pretty thoroughly. When we walked outside, I realized that I hadn't thought once about death or any bad thoughts when I was in there. It was remarkable, since lately no matter what I do the dark thoughts are pervasive. I actually had a genuinely good time the entire time.
Has anyone had experiences like this lately? Done something and been surprised to realize you didn't think about ctb the whole time?
But I did, and I managed to climb harder problems than I thought. I wasn't frustrated at how little I was able to do like I have been in the past, but I was actually enjoying it pretty thoroughly. When we walked outside, I realized that I hadn't thought once about death or any bad thoughts when I was in there. It was remarkable, since lately no matter what I do the dark thoughts are pervasive. I actually had a genuinely good time the entire time.
Has anyone had experiences like this lately? Done something and been surprised to realize you didn't think about ctb the whole time?
rock climbing scares me, but my partner loves it (and all kinds of extreme sports) and says it helps them calm their mind to just focus on the one task ahead. I think that's a beautiful lesson! 
I may have to look for a similar hobby that can help me get out of my head, into my body, and not have so many thoughts swirling 
thank you for sharing!
