Bedrock48
Dreadful damage, dreadful destiny
- Feb 1, 2021
- 540
Yet another failed attempt on 5th March, only just starting to feel better today. I really gave it my all this time but the only methods I have free access to are shit lol. The bridge near my house looks more tempting now but I promised myself I wouldn't use it because my old neighbours son took that route out. Can't deal with the thought of possibly re-traumatising him.
My potassium was 2.7 on examination at hospital (3.5 - 5 is normal). I was so weak that I couldn't walk and my eyes were dry to the point my vision was blurring. Just such a miserable and lonely experience. I wish I could get my hands on a gun, quick enough that I would hardly notice what happened.
Idk, maybe life hurts less than death? Maybe not. Don't know how I'm ever gonna live another 60 years of a 'natural' life let alone the next 5. I guess back to my plan of getting closer and closer to succeeding until my body gives up.
My potassium was 2.7 on examination at hospital (3.5 - 5 is normal). I was so weak that I couldn't walk and my eyes were dry to the point my vision was blurring. Just such a miserable and lonely experience. I wish I could get my hands on a gun, quick enough that I would hardly notice what happened.
Idk, maybe life hurts less than death? Maybe not. Don't know how I'm ever gonna live another 60 years of a 'natural' life let alone the next 5. I guess back to my plan of getting closer and closer to succeeding until my body gives up.