Spite
Nil Desperandum.
- Aug 20, 2025
- 197
I'd seriously rather CTB than continue wageslaving for the next 40+ years. This all feels so pointless.
I really cannot believe this is it. This is most peoples' lives. Getting up, dragging my ass to work, and spending most of the day slaving away at a job I couldn't care less about. This is miserable, exhausting, and soul-crushing, and I'm expected to do this for the next several decades?? I can't envision doing this for the rest of my life. By the time I get home from work at the end of the day I'm so tired and low on energy that I hardly have the drive to want to spend time on my hobbies or do much of anything but rest.
It's like I'm stuck in some kind of Groundhog Day simulation. I'm practically reliving the exact same day over and over again (sparing the weekends of course). This existence feels like a hellscape with no way out.
I don't even think it would matter what job I do, unless I was working in some elusive dream job that I absolutely loved which probably less than 1% of people ever get to experience. I just hate the idea of having to work. I really don't have any other choice, lest I want to be a resourceless NEET, or face homelessness. I have experience in both being a long-term NEET and being full-time employed. I can say from experience that both are pretty miserable, but in different ways. There really is no escape. It's like... pick your poison.
How am I supposed to "live my life" when I spend two-thirds of my waking existence stuck at work? What the hell am I supposed to do about this? The weekends aren't long enough and I barely get to enjoy them. Two days. That's it. Then it's back to work. This life feels like a cruel joke and wageslavery is more than enough reason for me to want to check out early.
I just about can't take this anymore. I wish I could fall asleep and never wake up again. If that actually happened, and I didn't live to see tomorrow, I think that would be a blessing.
I really cannot believe this is it. This is most peoples' lives. Getting up, dragging my ass to work, and spending most of the day slaving away at a job I couldn't care less about. This is miserable, exhausting, and soul-crushing, and I'm expected to do this for the next several decades?? I can't envision doing this for the rest of my life. By the time I get home from work at the end of the day I'm so tired and low on energy that I hardly have the drive to want to spend time on my hobbies or do much of anything but rest.
It's like I'm stuck in some kind of Groundhog Day simulation. I'm practically reliving the exact same day over and over again (sparing the weekends of course). This existence feels like a hellscape with no way out.
I don't even think it would matter what job I do, unless I was working in some elusive dream job that I absolutely loved which probably less than 1% of people ever get to experience. I just hate the idea of having to work. I really don't have any other choice, lest I want to be a resourceless NEET, or face homelessness. I have experience in both being a long-term NEET and being full-time employed. I can say from experience that both are pretty miserable, but in different ways. There really is no escape. It's like... pick your poison.
How am I supposed to "live my life" when I spend two-thirds of my waking existence stuck at work? What the hell am I supposed to do about this? The weekends aren't long enough and I barely get to enjoy them. Two days. That's it. Then it's back to work. This life feels like a cruel joke and wageslavery is more than enough reason for me to want to check out early.
I just about can't take this anymore. I wish I could fall asleep and never wake up again. If that actually happened, and I didn't live to see tomorrow, I think that would be a blessing.
