ShinyScissors
Another artist who wants to die
- Feb 8, 2023
- 59
I recently made a post about my suicide planner coming in the mail. Unfortunately, I can't wait that long. My time to go is now.
• 2.5 grams of trazodone
• alcohol
• a very high railroad track with cement at the bottom
I just arrived at my spot so I'm posting this a little drunk I apologize
I put on a little makeup so I feel pretty in the coffin :) or I'll just be a splat who knows
About me:
I'm a 5'5 115lb 20 year old lady with long dirty blonde hair. I feel like I had a lot of potential. My depression is not genetic but a result of trauma. I've been kicked out of 3 households. I don't tell people that because they'll think I'm a bad person. I just want everyone to be happy. I love college so much. I like to be friends with everyone, I'm a very lively energetic positive person to them. But in reality I have BPD. I'd say I'm high functioning because I have top tier anger management. No one knows how fucking angry and hateful I am inside. I hate everything. It's taxing to always hide it. People are drawn to me but I can't help but run away. I also have OCD and ADHD, a match made in hell. People are always pissed at me for underperforming when in reality I'm trying my goddamn best. I just want to make everyone happy so bad. It's never good enough.
I am unemployed, full time student, and financially reliant on a man who is unfaithful to me. It's so lonely. I'm trapped and turned out just like my mother. Fuck this.
If this attempt is unsuccessful I will only try again. My brother took his life last year and I don't want him to be lonely.
• 2.5 grams of trazodone
• alcohol
• a very high railroad track with cement at the bottom
I just arrived at my spot so I'm posting this a little drunk I apologize
I put on a little makeup so I feel pretty in the coffin :) or I'll just be a splat who knows
About me:
I'm a 5'5 115lb 20 year old lady with long dirty blonde hair. I feel like I had a lot of potential. My depression is not genetic but a result of trauma. I've been kicked out of 3 households. I don't tell people that because they'll think I'm a bad person. I just want everyone to be happy. I love college so much. I like to be friends with everyone, I'm a very lively energetic positive person to them. But in reality I have BPD. I'd say I'm high functioning because I have top tier anger management. No one knows how fucking angry and hateful I am inside. I hate everything. It's taxing to always hide it. People are drawn to me but I can't help but run away. I also have OCD and ADHD, a match made in hell. People are always pissed at me for underperforming when in reality I'm trying my goddamn best. I just want to make everyone happy so bad. It's never good enough.
I am unemployed, full time student, and financially reliant on a man who is unfaithful to me. It's so lonely. I'm trapped and turned out just like my mother. Fuck this.
If this attempt is unsuccessful I will only try again. My brother took his life last year and I don't want him to be lonely.