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Mecha Man

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I'm just getting so impatient. I want to die now! I've had a big knife called a Ka-Bar stored away for awhile now but am reluctant to use it. But every once in awhile I think about things like stabbing myself in the heart and the neck to kill myself quickly (I hope) but it's probably extremely painful. Does everyone think using a knife is a bad idea?
 
Mofreeko

Mofreeko

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Apr 7, 2019
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Oof, easier said than done. Survival Instinct makes it very hard for us to harm ourselves, at least fatally, on purpose. Is there no way you can get access to a nitrogen cylinder or order N from A? Or even find a place to jump?
 
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Oof, easier said than done. Survival Instinct makes it very hard for us to harm ourselves, at least fatally, on purpose. Is there no way you can get access to a nitrogen cylinder or order N from A? Or even find a place to jump?

I realize that it would be easier in the long run to just wait and do an easier method. It's just that at this moment I'm feeling so impatient. I already failed epicly at finding a place to hang myself and I'm just so frustrated that I can't just die right now.
 
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Mofreeko

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I realize that it would be easier in the long run to just wait and do an easier method. It's just that at this moment I'm feeling so impatient. I already failed epicly at finding a place to hang myself and I'm just so frustrated that I can't just die right now.
Yeah I hear you man. If there was a button I could press to end it all now I would do it without hesitation. That said, using a knife is very unlikely to succeed and you'll just make a mess and wind up in emergency when panic takes over. You might even get sectioned. I would advise against it.
 
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Yeah I hear you man. If there was a button I could press to end it all now I would do it without hesitation. That said, using a knife is very unlikely to succeed and you'll just make a mess and wind up in emergency when panic takes over. You might even get sectioned. I would advise against it.

Yeah, I guess I just needed to hear it from somebody. I'm just so impulsive sometimes
 
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DepressionsAHo

DepressionsAHo

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Feb 15, 2019
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I get it. Trust me. I had a mental breakdown and I posted it on here. I couldn't find my pills but I was going to swallow every last bit of them
This feeling will past. But fuck me with a spiked fist if it doesn't suck
 
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Mr2005

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Hell no. This is why it's cruel not having an easy way out. It's a choice of pain or more pain.
 
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wanttodie

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me to things like stabbing myself in the heart to kill myself I have a big knife
 
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200_ponies

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I completely understand your feelings of impatience. I've been so impatient that I once got up in the middle of the night and parked on some train tracks just waiting for them to come and hit me so I could get it over with.

That being said, it probably is best to think up a foolproof plan, since knife wounds are really painful and rarely fatal. As much as it absolutely sucks to wait, it'll be better than ruining the attempt and ending up in a hospital with no way out.

Sometimes what helps me during these kinds of moments is to picture myself dying soon and fading away into peace. It isn't a permanent fix but it helps calm me down and relax me.
 
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